very sad day.

please don't make use of me

the fishball noodles had 3 pork lard cubes and normally i would eat one and leave/give away the rest. but beacause today was a sad day i ate all of em.

i was supposed to get that nice top i had my eyes on for a month but because today was a sad day the size i wanted was sold out.

i was supposed to spend time with you today but because today was a sad day u left me alone to shop by myself.

i had everything planned out but because today was a sad day today was ruined.

i left the house in high spirits but because today was a really sad day on the way home on the bus i nearly cried.

i would normally dabao my food but because today was a very sad day i sat alone in the coffeeshop and had dinner by myself.

I don't mean to be so strange
But my life just took a change
Cause I just found someone special
And that's really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you anyway

So before this goes too far
Let me tell you what you are
You're amazing, I'm attracted
But I'm terribly distracted
And I'm trying to be verbal
And I'm back into this circle
Cause I just found someone special
And that's really something special
If you knew me
Nice to meet you anyway

weird me

Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little-known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.

i was tagged by dwayne!

10 weird habits/things/little known facts about me:please still be my friend

1. i trim my nails every two days
2. i kinda like sitting alone to eat
3. order in which a guy attracts my attention: face(looks), body(built), height, skin colour, clothes, bag, shoes.
4. i lost 10 kg when i had braces on
5. i've only had two crushes since primary school
6. my head gets really really itchy when i eat very spicy stuff
7. i dig the tausar and curry potato out from the pau and curry puff respectively and eat the pastry parts only i throw away the fillings
8. i skip rope very well
9. i love studying
10. i really don't care if people cut my queue

OKAY now u noe im actually not very weird right:)

my turn to arrow 10 people!
michk
jiaxin

..ok i got no more friends i don't even have a list to make 10 that really say's sth.

pain now we are dead ]0|-|n noes our "eh look at my botak friend" and "don't worry i won't bite". die alrd.

im on a task to design and get stuff for our internet cafe. i've bought minimal games alrd any churchies wanna donate please tell me!!!we need loads of nice games and nice carpets and pillows and and..and..curtains?hehe

goodbye.

hello mr prata man.

Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

This is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my head's spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

chicken beryani RAWWWKKKKS big time!i loooove parpardam! someone once bluffed me that there's mamadam and it's purple in colour!hello i actually believed and i asked my dad and he gave me the -_- o_0 looks combined :D

stayover was not exciting because we were so super duper tired. we fell asleep like i think 2 minutes after we stopped yakking. morning was as usual with me doin the wake up calls. wah i tell u my pain really sleep as much as she can man must make full use of all the snoozes.

-sidetrack- oh mich!i met the "wah suka suka call my name blahblahheehaw" on the bus home leh! when i saw him coming up i purposely look down cuz i paiseh!but after talking to him i realised that he is actually quite good at holding convos LOL e took further than me summore we talked for the whole journey! *wheww* OH OH and he is wenyi's(nygh) cousin leh! how coincidental is that!

lalala might be going to eat prata with army boi and nick and jem later!haha i doubt they will want to eat lorh they are going for a big dinner where still can eat prata! but im looking forward to it though i feel like drinking teh tarik or milo dino:P shall bombard them with my horrible encounters last night!!eeks.

i smell good GOOD GOOOOOOOOD at last!

first times.

i like dancing.
too much smoke i was practically engulfed in it.
more close friends would have been more fun.
my clothes stank really badly after that.
sleazy chaps.
bad first impression.
just the smoke had to go. and the weird peeps too.
hello u dun do that to a girl you didn't even say hello to.
i came out feeling lung-cancerish instead of happy.
give it another chance.
hehe but I LOVE MY PAIN!!
cuz who on earth chooses tau sar pau then change to da bao then leave the big lump of meat on the plate?

tmr pain worship prac die.

see what i wanna see

i am so tired.

i like s and crank course hehe just hope test that time won't strike or mount!

im going shopping in 45 mins i need to sleep.

goodbye.

You raise me up

i hate changing lanes in heavy traffic.

u-turning today was fun!instructor say im good so well well heh he let me try all the routes' u-turns. im just hoping i get a the new caR with instructor **** instd of ******>:( anw im goin to take my test in SEPTEMBER hello long long way to go. all the cars and buses and lorries and taxis and vans and motorcycles and old pedestrians please keep clear of my test route so i will pass please please thanks. instructor **** say if i dun chk my blindspot i can accumulate 40 points during the test:P

im embarking on another mission to save my brain. the first secret mission has stalled for about one week i shall resume immediately. the new mission is fun i think im abut crazy but so long as my dream dussen fall apart oh yeah:):)

i got an acceptance offer from ntu to my first choice!thank God for His grace:D if i dun get my second choice at nus i'd prob go to ntu.

i am strong, when i am on your shoulders
you raise me up,to more than i can be

as it is, so be it.

i love instructor ****!he is so nice because he wants to hurry let me complete my subjects so i can book my practical test!!not like instructor ****** ytd only let me do one pathetic lesson!and it's lane changing summore hellllloooo..
today instructor **** came into the car then he took my booklet and see and he said, "AIYO!WHY HE NEVER TEACH YOU DIRECTIONAL CHANGE!WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR LANE CHANGING!" so i just said yah lorh so bad right dunnoe leh.." haha i hope instructor **** teaches me for all my lessons to come he teaches me lots of tricks! today i totally pwned the circuit directional change course! he was supposed to teach me how to do corrective adjustments but i din make any mistakes so he asked me to purposely try to turn late so i will strike the curb so he can teach me how to correct the mistake -_-

so tmr i will be learning U-TURNS MUAHAHHAA BEWARE ALL YOU AMK YCK DRIVERS OUT THERE i just hope i dun stall while i u-turn or else three-cheers alrd.

i just discovered that my com has virus:( desperately saving all my pics now before everything suddenli disappears! if the com dies i will have to reformat and all my precious stuff will be gone!!irritating.

looking forward to the weekends i dunnoe why!oh ya MY PAIN!! is our date on?hehe reply me soon!

enjoy the following pictures of me in my nice wardrobe. ps the hot dress is the same one as my ancient post sexy #2;not mine yet i dun mind a sponsor. the sexy boots is nice i like i like i like!!:D


sexy boots!

hot dress

hazard lights

i chuang3 three traffice lights today and stopped inside the yellow box at the junction well done pamela. no wonder my instructor only let me do one pathetic lesson today >:(

went shopping with mummy today fun fun fun! i bought sth i love v v v much i can't wait to wear it out!:):):)

i love my friends!

trying to be so perfect for you

I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head


I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth this
Yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I’d say i wanna blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
what's my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

Cause I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I’d say i wanna blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say

Cause I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

Yes I’m wishing my life away
all these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I’d say i wanna blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say

hurry hurry lessons quickly so i can book my test and pass on first try and not need to extend my pdl:)

i guess it's the emptiness that im starting to feel that's causing my heart to ache.

anw gave tuition to ]u|!@n@ ytd night for two hours wahh she realli has alot of homework man! i taught her simultaneous equation LEHHH hoho primary 5 supposed to know or not ah? drawing models is realli a chore man waste time waste effort they should teach algebra from primary four. btw she told her mummy that she after i teach her she understands!woot three cheers for me please:D and there are some concepts i taught her the previous lesson im glad she remembers heh or else i can knock my head on the wall.

im sort of looking forward to university you know.

i simply live for You:)

im very happy because the new food centre at my house just opened and there's really alot of things to eat:):) #1 cheekueh is heavenly. #2 mixed veg rice the sweet and sour pork is like rubber i think sure close down one the shop. ok that's all i've tried from there shall find which is the stall that sells the best food heh:D

ate haagen daz ice cream today happiness~:P thanks uncle __ for treating! hmm but i think haagen daz ice cream is really so expensive!!acckk

anw me n pain went shopping today we talked alot of shit but i like:) and we kept re-enacting c|@ry|'$ video where he interviewed his grandma oh my it's really funny!his grandma is cute and waaaay cool man we like!:D as usual jiaxin bought sth and i didn't. there was this point we were sitting outisde burger king talking about some pte stuff and such then the old lady whose back was facing us at first suddenly turned and like wanted to join in the convo!LOL there was this drastic change is volume level both of us suddenli stopped talking while the ah ma asked us why we never smoke ?!?!-_-!!! and asked us what we studying etc. she was eating the mixed frutips i think i looked like i would really love to have one but she didn't offer me:( so anw it became realli weird cause me n jia wanted to tok so we decided to leave hehe:P

#1 convo of the day:
sexier girl:ehh he good looking?
sexy girl:hmm not bad la
sexier girl:wah ok intro please thanks.
hey actually im quite picky leh die alrd won't get married for the next 20 years

#2 convo of the day:
me: heyy 9r@(|@ can u feel my hand arh when i touch?(the subject is pregnant)
9r@(|@:huh yah of course la it's still my skin leh!
me:eh oh yah horh-_-

oh i found a nice shop-skin food! was practically opening every tester bottle jar and tube to smell the creams and gels! but no no i would never spend $31 on a bottle of moisturizing cream hello my nivea bottle so humongous onli what $6.90 leh. i think i would indulge in a tube of face mask though looks good onli $16 but wait i haven finished my old tube+new tube yet.

well don't i sound like a happier girl alrd the wonder and goodness of God:) cause my dream's not yet fallen apart and hey no im not gonna let it be.

boat asia 2007

welcome to...
BOAT ASIA 2007:)

well i entered as an "exhibitor" implying that i have a boat on display. LOL funny ah funny i dun even haf a sampan im sure i haf a boat.

the #1 dreamboat of mine is HYE SEAS i like i like 20 million dollars wahh WAHH must so expensive but it's realli super sexy like me:D

enjoy!:)(click to enlarge!!)

mine

mine also

queen is I

it's all about You

"much as we may wish to make a new beginning, some part of us resists doing so as though we were making the first step toward disaster."--william bridges

i think im quite hazardous on the road.well, nvm. i wanted to ask my instructor if he felt like vommitting at the end of the lesson:)

i have something in my mind, to make things better. i believe in myself, and i believe in Him. it's a plan i've crafted out after much deliberation and thoughts. so if it's His will, im gonna like it oh yeah. because there's one two three four reasons i've thought of to support this. so don't let this dream fall apart, 'coz im being lifted higher.


moi

and a lifetime's not too long, to live as friends:) thanks!

you tore the veil, you made a way, when You said, that it is done

beating at the doors of my heart.

i believe in the impossible. if i reach deep within my heart. overcome any obstacle. won't let this dream fall apart. see i strive to be the very best. shine my light for all to see. cause anything is possible. when you believe yeah. love keeps lifting me higher.

i guess what should take three months needs one month only. im slowly thinking this whole thing out and sorting out my life myself. 24 hours to myself and God is gonna lead somewhere. so please don't ask me how i feel and don't try comforting me by saying "aiyah can do something else laa" because i will just be polite and say huhh hee haw heh but inside im still hurting and thinking. but mainly because i've had a history of suicidal comtemplations and all your constant yakkings will let history repeat itself. and maybe this time there're would be a lifesaver no more.

me:if jane is 6 years old now, how old will she be after 6 years?
]u|!@n@:thirty-six
me:WAHH!!u mean now she six years old, one. two, three, ..six years later she so old alrd?!
]u|!@n@:oooops hehe 12!

watched meet the robinsons with army boi ytd was realli cute and funny esp the dinosaur the short little arms i like~! dw was luffing super duper madly when the small baby hat little doris came out! guess that's what u get when ur fren who has been locked up in ocs comes out for a movie huh:) what was amusing was that the whole theatre only had like eight people i think 2 of us one kid with two adults two men and the uncle-usher.

the reason i love em

You are my strength when i am weak

it's seven years of hopes, a lifetime of dreams.

i cried ytd night, because i was afraid. maybe it's a bad thing afterall when your want becomes so great. then is it wrong to aspire?maybe not, but im definitely feeling the hurt.

i did what i could. but im not doing what i should.

i'm not over it.

i think the purpose of life is to be useful, to be responsible, to be honourable, to be compassionate. it is after all, to matter: to count, to stand for something,to have made some difference that you lived at all.--LEO C.ROSTEN

downtrodden

mamamamamamamamamamamamamama

haiiiii im in such a mamama mood.i want it like super alot and it's so extremely hard to let go you know you know YOU KNOW i think you don't.bah.as i was taking the lift down to the letter box i was practically shivering you know my heart was beating so fast. then when there was no letter i was just siandiao and stoned and heavy hearted. and some people are just so insensitive when they talk i just dun wanna continue talking.

i think i need 3 months to get out of it.
driving today so waste money instructor onli gif me one subject.well at least i totally didn't stall my engine that is fantastic i managed to execute my "move off from slope" perfectly as well:) ftt tmr lets hope i pass.no $$ alrd.

gave tuition to ]u|!@n@ just now hmm i must say that p5 maths is not easy!and i took to long to figure out the last number pattern.n korh laugh at me cuz he saw it first and he sae "alevel cannot do p5. poly beat rjc." oh well the expectations we face. anw i will never expect $ from her mum because firstly,the children live onli with their mum because their parents are divorced.secondly, their mum works so so hard for her children i dun think i will ever haf the heart to even think of $$. i like the feeling of helping the kids they're really cute, although quiet.

going back to depression mode i need to meditate.

me myself and i

You are Betty Grable

The ulitmate girl next door You're the perfect girl for most guys Pretty yet approachable. Beautiful yet real.

What Famous Pinup Are You?

LOL hehe

You Are Socks!

Cozy and warm... but easily lost. You make a good puppet.

What Crappy Christmas Gift Are You?

puppet?!?!

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Idealistic and dreamy, you tend toward the impractical. You have a knack for getting yourself in sticky situations. Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

woo

Key Areas of your Personality
Your personality stands out from the average person's particularly in the areas of:

Your High Curiosity Level
Your Low Emotional Reactivity Level
Your Low Distractibility
Your High Empathy/ Sensitivity Level

One chapter of your 100-page Personality Report is dedicated to how you compare to the average woman and the average man in the 8 main areas of personality, and how this affects the way that people interact with you.

Your personality is made up of a unique pattern of traits. These traits impact the way you think, feel, and behave on an everyday basis. In your report you will read a detailed explanation of each of your core personality traits, including your strengths and challenge points.

Your Interaction Style:
You scored 35 in the area of extroversion/ introversion, which means that your energy is directed primarily inward, rather than outward. Your mixed score in this trait creates an interesting and alluring combination of traits: You are social yet also very reflective and introspective. You like to be around people, but too much interaction drains your energy. You need to retreat every once in a while in order to recharge your batteries. Keep these needs in mind when choosing the ideal work situation for you, otherwise you won't feel happy.

Social patterns: You are right-brained when it comes to interacting with people and recognizing emotions in other people.

What does this mean? Since there is a 'cross-over' in the human brain for visual information, it means that you tend to focus on the left side of a person's face when you want to figure out what they are thinking and feeling.

Hearing preferences are an interesting exception to this right-left crossover rule. For example, if two people were talking behind a closed door and you needed to put your ear on the door to eavesdrop, it's likely that you would use your right ear instead of your left.

where is the love?

ytd was soooo tiring i came home and slept within 20 mins.

sigh i was quite sad n siandiao when u just shouted and attituded me like that but i really was listening to instructions but no im not angry and i will try not to take it to heart because i know the problems and burdens u are facing and i shall be gracious and let God=)

i seriously think sometimes some things no need to get so angry one. but well, there's nth i can do if they choose to be.

i am currently quite worried and scared and afraid because my letter is nowhere to be found.i noe i should let go and let God but..it's so harddddddd i really want this hai so if i dun get it will i wait another year?i also dunnoe.QWERTYUIOPASDFGHJKLZXCVBNM

i think the world dussen care how u feel. and i dun like it now that u people are forcing us to do some things but realli, i dun think youths nowadays can or will or watnt to grow using these methods. it's really a generation gap i think but many times when we say sth it dussen puts much across and it gets put down because after all the world dussen care how we feel.

when You said that it is done

sometimes it's little things that make me happy, and little things that make me wonder. i guess it's the bad little things that make me no longer want to do it anymore, because no matter how much i try i can't seem to make any sense out of it..and out of you.

worship prac was good i must say gr@(3 is good man her intro to one of the songs exactly like the one i sent her wah must *clapclapclap!
then after that we POPPED A BAG OF POPCORN!! haha ty is mad he seems to really likes it alot although it was like super oily and salty and pain keep trying to smear the butter onto his hand!

buru mission trng was fun as usual i think the world is really very extremely small.@sh3r is sooooooooo very cuuutee he was luffing and smiling when i played with the yellow bunny with him and when mich shake the chrysanthemum tea bag then make the "ssshhhrr sshhhrr" sound!!oh myyy!:D

LAUGH OUT LOUD i think nat is really v cute and funny! he looks totally blur (i hope he dussen read this!)! and todae is 14th apr he wish me happy belated birthday (my birthday 31st mar ah) haha i was amused! OH YAH and mich he told me sth about you im not supposed to say but if u ask me nicely treat me to icecream macs one i aso dun mind i might just tell you it's funny!

oh well stress stress for tmr for next week esp letters should be out for forever. '

army boi is out i bet i wun get to see him until like another year or sth haha WHERE ARE YOU PLEASE APPEAR.

BORED.

wooot i can move off slopes alrd i think i rock.instructor **** is nice he wanted to let me try the circuit slopes although that's like subject 19 im onli at 12!but too long queue:( i hope i get the new car for my next lesson:) the most exciting thing that happened today was that this lorry carrying loads of things was reversing into a major road from a minor road then this lady was walking behind it the driver never look one just keep rolling back v fast also!luckily the woman started running away or else sure kena hit one. then instructor **** said,"wah luckily she noe how to run ah or else we are the eyeswitnesssss alrd." LOL

after cracking my brains i realise that i didn't have to=(

sigh haihai where is my letter?or maybe i dun haf:'(

i miss my friends.i miss army boi.i miss teammates.i miss school.i miss volleyball.i miss everything.GRRRRAIKNHWEIPBFJKDWIVBWEFBIEBCWEP

police & thief

WAH today is exciting man!i was driving then suddenli my instructor sae, "eh why that police chasing that man" so i thought police car i was trying to look and kaypoh then i saw this man running across the road at the junction there he was about to escape luckily got too many cars the police managed to chase after him n pin him down at the middle of the road leh the road divider there i think he half body on the road half on the divider then another police man came from my right out from a police van then he run that time his GUN dropped!then another policeman also came out to help heng ah he saw the gun he picked it up so three policeman pinning the guy down and trying to handcuff him. LOL lucky for me it was red light so i can stop and watch wah really very exciting hoho i bet tonight news sure have.

today i got the uber koyak laoyah car again grr the gear cannot change one lorh so irritating. anw i learnt the half handbrake technique of going up the steep slope back into the school hehe instructor **** taught me. wah i seriously think i can skip subjects alrd:D and i stalled ONCE only todae so...*clapclap* btw i think i will hate parking because i abit disoriented when reversing hoho if i wanna go left backwards i will think that steering my steering wheel right makes more sense. bah let'see..:)

eh i think some singaporeans are quite mean sometimes. like horh i know you pro alrd la can drive without triangle plate also can drive mercedes bmw jaguar no need instructor no need to check blindspot etc..budden u see u noob driver me in front of you drive honda taking abit longer to move off im sure u must horn at me. please show some courtesy i bet last time u learning that time also want people to give way to you and help you learn right? >:(

eh how come i haven't get any letter. u know i think i will sink into depression if i dun get it. hai see la see la so stupid

clutch-brake-accelerate-crutch-break-ambulance0_o

driving today was so-so i din learn anything new, because i just drove round amk. but i must say that driving more often gives me more confidence:):) esp on the roads where un-nice people honk at you although you have that big fat NOOB L-plate hanging there on your car. instructor ****** was so mean today not to me but to the other road users!
#1: there was this taxi(again) who honked TWICE at me because i took so long to move off.and i was like "wah why he horn at me" then instructor ****** honked back at him!haha that was hilarious i actually laughed oh no im getting mean.

#2: there was this rather old man who was cycling realli fast budden the traffic lights were like TOTALLY in my favour and he decided not to stop and continue cycling although it's like red man for him and i was going upslope hohoho oh no i was not planning to stop because the slope was quite steep i hate stoping on slopes because then i become a hazard. so i went "oh no oh no how im sure he's gonna cross" and true enough he cycled past and instructor ****** horned at him and he shocked dao4!!oh m i felt super duper ultra omega extremely terrible you know so kelian the rather old man like got scared and "jumped" abit in his seat oh myyy i was so sad for a while then i "scolded" instructor ****** i said, "ehhh y u horn at himmmm" in a really sad way then he never say anything:(

#3 this silly machine thing suddenly appeared and the workers were trying to whiten the white line on the roads u noe?so the machine went left and right and left and right. when i was on the left lane by the time i was prepared to change to the right lane the machine alrd on the right and this whole viciouscycle repeated for like 3 times then they finished so in the end i didn't need to change lane:(

#4 i totally almost rolled back into another trng car behind me! so help me!i cannot move off from the slope without rolling back for nuts i haven learn half handbrake technique yet!!grr i think i rolled back like alot the car behind me horn at me hoho sorry!:D

by now i've developed two habits.one good and one bad.
good: i almost always check my blindspots whenever it is required to
bad: i step on the clutch pedal too soon when i wanna change down to second gear so instead of slowing down i speed up then i dunnoe what to do then i jsut brake-_-

i bet u must be thinking that im a real noob and im more of a road hazard then a drunkard but heyy i think im quite good except for the fact that i seriously hate slopes and i tend to take quite long to move off! but todae i drove the new car i like coz the seat is so much more comfy and the brakes and accelerator and gearknobthingy are more sensitive.although i was complaining to ser that the number-44 is like super suay i was thinking i would get into an accident. and hers was 114.not much better.LOL:D:D lucky we both came out unhurt.

anw i think my instructor likes me not the bgr way la u toot as in as a student.he asked me when's my next lesson i think he's gonna take me again tmr hoho fixed instructor for free i dun mind at least he's not fierce. but he did sorta scold me this morn.after changing lane i didn't cancel my left signal so near the junction i wanted to go into the filter lane then he suddenli shouted "EHWHERE U GOING!GO STRIAGHT!" then he grabbed my steering wheel and undo my left motion woahh hahaha i sae sorry sorry i think he felt quite bad then he tried to like say nicely "eh i never ask u turn left right pamela, we going back alrd..just now u never cancel ur signal" HOHOHAHAHAHEHEHEHEEEE i made him feel bad whee ^5 :)

ok im off to watch tv now im a really lonely retarded right now i do nothing but use my computer and watch tv and sleep and eat and read n play with my dog and bring her down and go for driving.sounds like alot of things to do but seriously im going to rot soon. painpain please end ur attachment quickquick and i really want to start going to school why hasn't nus send me any letter regarding interview?!!!?!??!!:(:(:(

random picture. a pro photographer took it when i was praying hmm i think it's rather nice:) if u think it's ugly please do not comment thank you!

blessed is he who feareth the Lord

woot!instructor seah say my turning is good:) happy~
he's good leh taught me alot of tactics at first i was skeptical budden they work like ultra well!sure get ZERO demerit points during practical test one.HOHO im sure. and 1 thing im surprised at is the blindspot seriously seem that i can see everything in my side mirrors but actualli cannot see one.FUN.i like driving. oh yeah and he keep laughing at me because:

1. i say i play daytona that's why my turning quite pro
2. i asked him if green light on but the green arrow nv on can go or not (duh?!)
3. i ask him how i see the pedestrian if the car on my right blocking me then i dunnoe when to stop
4. i cancel signal before i even reached the car i want to make a left turn to avoid(it's sth like haven't eat breakfast eat lunch alrd)
5. there was this part the traffic light turned green but by the time i got ready to go it turned red alr >:(

but today was much more encouraging then ytd i stalled engine once only=) then on the way back i was asking instructor seah why the taxi drivers so xiong one drive so fast there was one behind him that horn at us ask us move front when we queueing up to go back into the circuit.he say "aiya all taxi drivers also liddat one". LOL i think stereotyping la but seriously some taxi drivers drive very fast and never take care in driving carefully one hazardous to NOOBS like MOI.

so ends yet another lucky day no one was injured by my horrendous driving i would very much like instructor seah to teach me again budden so expensive to book instructor i no $$ :(

complain complain also never do anything about it hai.

i've been reading a book on interns' life in the pediatrics field i really like it and im interested in this field really sounds super duper tiring sleepless nights foodless(!!!!!!!!) days social-life-less days fun and insightful and challenging. here are some things i've picked up after being 196 pages into the book:

1. cervical adenitis: swelling of the lymph nodes in the neck due to infection
2. crump: internese to describe the situation when someone "tries" to die on the doctors like when his heart stop beating etc
3. sickler: child with sickle-cell anemia
4. febrile seizure: convulsion that occurs with fever, no long term effects
5. aspirated: stomach contents leak into lungs (hey i've seen this!)
6. sepsis: blood infection (hey i know this!)
7. periorbital cellulitis: infection of the tissue surrounding eye
8. epinephrine: a drug that stimulates the heart to beat when say, during cardiac arrest
9. agonal rhythm: a heart rhythm signifying impending death
10. a baby's gestational age in weeks is roughly equal to two times its length in inches.

yeah so that's 10 new things learnt much more but quite cheem i also dun really rmbr or understand:D

"it's like im less interested in the patients and more interested in what i can and cannot do"-andy, from the book

anw i was trying to find how to sing a song from youtube and i chanced upon this when i saw it i cringed n squirmed n gulped and my tears just kept flowing it reminds me of His love for me and how he was like us he could actually feel the extreme pain. there's really nothing i can say but i love You.
(do not click if you do not like gory images/bloody scenes)

im on a secret mission i hope i can accomplish it althouhh it may seem meaningless to some i feel that it will truly really definitely help me.Lord give me strength!

drive drove driving driven

aaaAArrghhh di di du du beep bop pa pi poo i stalled the car engine today like ten million times today:(

why?
1. never change back to first gear before moving off
2. release clutch to early when moving off
3. never step on clutch pedal when braking.

THIS IS HORRIBLE man first n second lesson only stalled once each! >:(
my instructor today was very chorlorh he drives quite recklessly i must say! HOHO.and there was this stretch of road super empty so i drove quite fast and then suddenly he said, "pamela!you're at 60 alrd leh!" WAH im sure i must drive so fast when im only at 3rd gear hoohoo.
then left 10 mins liddat he ask me drive back in and stop at the curb i tot he want to start abit on subject 7 moving off from kerbside GUESS WHAT he want to go to the gents AARGH so i politely say "sure" inside me i think of my $$ flying~ away:'(.then he come back then i must start parking my car alrd time's up.
ROAR.

so i went to j8 to gaigai alone i think the money changer cheat my $$ nvm. then at the cash deposit machine the lady in front of me took SOOOOO long i tell you deposit money why must put in a few notes by a few leh?the cash slot so huge im sure not enough space. she put in $1000 FOUR times wah i tell u a secret i was so tempted to go ask her issit she strike 4D but i didn't:D

so mummy n korh are in genting me and daddy have to cook for ourselves tmr daddy'll be at work i'll be all alone:( anw i popped some poppydeeyummy popcorn just now i popped them in the wok i think they would have tasted better microwaved=)

tasha is soooo cute i love her like mad.


i bet she was dreaming of eating the bone!

then their eyes were opened and they recognized Him

i'm so amazed that You my Lord would die for such i cost

different thoughts running through my head.
u noe i also dunnoe actually hurhur actually i think i noe la but how to sae leh?i just dun think that t i a f f u.HEH.and it's also because h i s w z z r and so i d n w t h o r b l h k i l h. understand?

betcha dun.nvm

went shopping wif pain todae fun fun!!funniest thing that happened:

policeman to woman behind me:sorry servicing
woman:oh ok
me:WAH HENG AH(reeeaaally loudly
jiaxin looks back and policeman smirks at my comment

anyyywaaaayy i bought two pairs of new sox!!!love them man!



and i saw a really sexy nice top i like!!


and today i found a new way of eating longans at the bottom of the cheng teng packet.

no greater love=)

haha MY FAVOURITE PAIN I LOVE YOU TRUCKLOOOOOAAAAADDSS!
the name of the following people have been changed to protect the identity of the juvenille.

pain says:
as in when i'm at my not so stable emotional state i see u
pain says:
will feel like crying
pain says:
cos u r like my sister
pain says:
like really sister tt kind of feeling like family lo
.
.
pain says:
dun cry k or else dun feel like eating dinner which is so wasted <- this is so true!!!!
Come, Lord, and set me free. says:
HAHHAAMUAHAHHAHAHHAA
pain says:
hahahahahhahahahaha only u can relate with me to food like that lo

sisters forever love you love you love you!!!!

abababababa the angel said that im a strong warrior, and a strong one i shall be:)
mission trip trng todae was hiliiiiAAARIIioooUSSS my gosh went mad even before getting to know nat's and dom's names and oh did we went mad with sharon she was so amused i think she's really funny laughing at her own jokes and trying to know what we're laughing about!

theres no higher sacrifice
than a man would give his life
you have paid the highest price for me
you chose me

thank you Lord

a cinderella story

Not a lot right now makes sense to me
And it won’t go quietly
Not a lot right now makes sense to me
And it won’t sit patiently

I’m gonna chase my dreams and catch up to them
I’m gonna find you some how, some way, somewhere, some day

First day of the rest of our lives, I miss you already
Last time I saw that look in your eyes, I miss you already
First day of the rest of our lives, I miss you already
Last time I saw that look in your eyes, I miss you already

I don’t want to spend the rest of my life alone
Where’s life taking me?
I don’t want to spend the rest of my life alone
Always traveling

I’m gonna chase my dreams and catch up to them
I’m gonna find you some how, some way, somewhere, some day

First day of the rest of our lives, I miss you already
Last time I saw that look in your eyes, I miss you already
First day of the rest of our lives, I miss you already
Last time I saw that look in your eyes, I miss you already

I wanna love my job
I wanna love my life
But most of all, I wanna fall in love

First day of the rest of our lives, I miss you already
Last time I saw that look in your eyes, I miss you already
First day of the rest of our lives, I miss you already
Last time I saw that look in your eyes, I miss you already

You have overcome the grave

Oh Lord You’ve searched me,
You know my way;
Even when I fail You,
I know You love me.
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There’s no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now?

You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me;
I know You love me.
And when the earth fades,
Falls from my eyes,
And You stand before me,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.

You tore the veil, You made a way
When You said that it is done

and i'll drive you to paradise

vrooooom vroooom VROOOOOOOM!!!!!!!

hohohoheeeehaaa!!driving today was fun man my teacher was funny although he looked a little sleepy he probably was hungry.
scene #1
tchr:eh brake!!!
me:(applies brakes slowly then i realise i was going to hit the car in front then i zam3 the brakes)
tchr:WAH WHY YOUR FRIEND PURPOSELY SABO YOU?!!? I ALSO DUNNOE WHY!

LOLps serene's car was the car in front!!grr

scene #2
tchr:guess what this button is for? (points to a red button)
me:dunnoe
tchr:for fire ah, u press this
me:oohhhh (intelligently)
tchr:u press this right we will both shoot up from the seats
me:I'M SURE LA (touches roof of car)
tchr:(laughing)haha u dun believe you try la
me:realli mehhh..dun bluff(presses button)
car:HOOONK!!!!
me:TSK!rolls eyes at tchr
tchr:haha that's the instructor's horn la!!

scene #3
tchr:eh ok let's change over
me:ok!(opens door and leaves it open while walking to other side of car)
tchr:OEI!y u never close the door after my door no more ah!

scene #4
pre-requisite:the switch to adjsut the side view mirrors are in postitions left, right, and neutral, the neutral switch being in the middle
me:eh if the switch to the left means adjust the left mirror and right means adjust the right mirror, then the switch in the middle means adjust this rear view mirror ah?(points to rear view mirror)
tchr:(laughs reeeaaallly loudly)WAH NOT SO AUTOMATIC ONE LA MAYBE MERCEDES LA BUT THIS ONE HONDA ONLY MUST MANUUUAAALLL(uses hands to adjust rear view mirror)
me:oh.

scene #5
tchr:..and this is to spray the water(shifts lever but no water comes out)
tchr:eh sorry i forget to fill the water
tchr:..and that is the demister wires..see?but actually right this one not working alrd
tchr:..this is the hazard warning light button, but cannot see la koyak alrd
tchr:..can u see the blue light?(uses book to cover the sunlight until so pathetic and i was squinting like mad before i saw a faint blue light)aiya cannot see clearly

weeehahaha fun man i love driving i hope my teachers are all fun n nice!:) :) :)

and on the way back me n ah ser were complaining about this girl drving car #87 she keep stopping at the bends and in front of me waste my $$ leh i cannot move off cuz i NOOB.but nvm i think i am a hazard to others also :P

aaaAAAnnnyyway im proud to annouce that i only stalled my engine ONCE.how's that For a professional noob?

one team, one dream, one passion

oh my my i love my teammates i love yenping!hehe:D

enjoy!ps:click only if you like my face


went back to school on sat to see my team.nostalgic feeling when i walked into the school. the courts are repainted, they haf cool new equipment for trng, new coach. memories start flooding back, and once again i feel so :(

you know, i'll love my team forever.

hoohaahaa good friend buddy buddy army boy just called to give EXCUSES for not wishing me happy birthday! hohoho no worries u were the FIRST to give me my present hehe thank you thank you! happy to know you're A.O.K but take care in army be careful not to fall in love with ocs:P

sorry i was wrong all these while.

to my dear friend, if you're reading this...

maybe i was wrong
maybe i shouldn't have left you alone
maybe i was selfish
maybe i was jealous
maybe i didn't realise that you made my days happy
maybe i never realised that you gave me strength
maybe i forgot that it was never your fault
maybe i was too proud to say that i am sorry
maybe i pushed all the blame to you and never did shoulder any
maybe i didn't put any effort while u tried so hard to hold on
maybe deep down i wanted to but i just didn't
maybe i treasured our friendship so much that i didn't know how to lose you
maybe i never knew that one day i will miss those times we had together
maybe i never thought of not laughing with you ever again
maybe i didn't realise what i was losing when i lost you.

but now,
i feel like crying
i feel like holding on to the drifting friendship
i feel like holding your hand once again
i feel like walking down the streets with you laughing and joyous
i feel like reliving the memories we had
i feel like taking mad pictures with you
i feel like "bringing out the worst" in you again
i feel like sitting with you just like when we were 17 year old girls
i feel like starting all over again...

but

i know it's hard and i don't know if i can.

i'm sorry i even left you there when i could have done more.
________

and to YOU#2:
i don't know what to say cause what i wanna say cannot be said here

"not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suferring produces perseverence; perseverence, character, and character, hope"-romans 5:3-4