Love Your Lord

"i will learn to love the Lord my God with all my heart with all my soul with all my mind with all my strength."

you realise that you feel so weak and lazy and powerless to do the things that honour Him, yet find it so easy and feel so energetic and powerful and strengthened to do the billion and one things of this world.


had a really blessed weekend! saturday saw me celebrating my 21st with my jc classmates @ hrc. wow it was really embrassing when they made an announcement and lh and i had to stand on the chair on the stage while the whole restaurant sang a birthday song for us:)more pictures with smoley..but meanwhile, here's my new friend gruffy:D




sunday saw a SURPIRSE!!!! by my beloved churchies. as usual mich sneakily told me "eyy we are going there to celebrate gw's bday" while i was playing with yl's baby. so i called pple to go there too and SURPRISE!!~~ the celebration was for me too. EXACTLY the same thing happened about 1 yr back @ nus engine tut rooms when we were preparing for bs on fruit of the spirit! anw i had the doraemon cake and HELLO i thought the doraemon can eat one i bit it and omg it's rubber.





then...WAAAAAHHHH *SWOOOONNNNNSSS~~~~~~~~







THANK YOU EVERYONE!! thank God for these people who have been watching over me and being with me and walking my walk of faith with me over the past 5 years+ in hcmc. wow so long alrd(= *BEAMS* never too long..

and ytd evening saw daddums mummops & korh & i on a hunt for _. wow really exciting and amusing. the cost of _ is really high! we decided to put it off and go hunting @ t&c (make a guess wassat) next weekend:D **Eggcited**

dinnertime was @ ecp..and boy were we full. sadly i forgot my camera BECAUSEEEE i was lugging THREE UMBRELLAS IN MY BAG zhen de shi hen zhong. and didn't even use them cuz the rain stopped. o_0

today is the BESTEST. stay at home and study about fats-__-|||

Just tears and rain

4 more weeks.

i'm feeling tired.

i need it to be over.

i feel emotionally drained.

i need a hiatus.

i give up the chase.

Your love has captured me.

i'm gonna give you my heart and all that is within me, laying it all down for the sake of You my King. i'm going to give you my dreams, and my rights, and my pride too, for the promise of new life. i'll sing you this song and wait at the cross. and all these things that the world holds dear, i'm going to learn to count it all as loss.




for the sake of knowing You.




because Your love has captured me.

just as i am

just yesterday i was reminded of how my saviour found me. depressed, forlorn, stressed, unhappy.. with really nothing, nothing to give.

tried many times but i just can't put into words this love that sought me out and found me.

can you imagine, he loved me when i was a total wreck, hopeless, gross, nothing beautiful, nothing to give him? and yet he thought i was the most beautiful thing.

Your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed but alive in Your hands

makes me tired of living in the hustle of this world. how i try to fit into social normalities, fit into being well-liked, try to ace in my studies, try to find a life partner..and forgetting to treasure this LIFE that i have.

what does LIFE mean to you?

was reading about how israel asked for a king, and it made me reflect. i have the Lord my God as my king, why am i asking for another? i hate myself for saying that all i want is to be with God and that God has provided me with all that i need, yet living a life as though results, a good bod, looking pretty, and acceptance means the whole world to me.

i really need to start LIVING.