You are the air i breathe

watched pan's labyrinth with daryl(not only.wait i will elaborate later) today.not that bad a show,thought it was quite gory though ESPECIALLY the part where the doc SAWED THE GUY'S LEG OFF omg that was like what in the world i think this show qualifies for a like NC 28.haha.

ok anw we had lunch at pastamania and i must say thanks to daryl for stepping on my slipper/foot three times.haha:D wow his tricks are cool man im still quite freaked out at the "randomly place the cards into the black or white row" trick.no logical explanation from me, but as carmen(in pan's labyrinth) puts it:there's no such thing as magic.lol

oh yes so my dear army boy "checked out"(hoho inside secret)for seven hours for a ten minutes interview.well done!and i must say he has become more muscular the army uniform looked like it was gonna explode.hehe:D i bet he's v happy today cos alas he got to meet the people he wanted to meet:) so he asked daryl to get two tkts for himself and michelle(NOT KOO), and hohoho me and daryl were deciding if we should be mean and get them the couple's seat.but being nice and all we decided to get them two seats beside us.but of course we also concluded if dwayne had brought **** along, we would DEFINITELY HAVE GOTTEN THEM THE COUPLE'S SEAT:P hehe.thou shall not trust your friends to buy movie tickets for u if u are bringing someone of the opp gender.

and after the movie we were like stoning around and going into 7-ELEVEN where i was really nice and helped army boy get a copy of FHM(for him and his bunkmates).the cashier asked me if i needed a carrier and i so so wanted to say no.but i didn't.

well so me daryl and michelle went to kino to stone again and i must say the maps there of europe are really expensive!grr.i think me n korh will just get lost and be really loserish when we go there.

oh yes suddenly thought of sth.it has been really cold these few days prob like 26 degrees celsius.i seriously wonder how i will withstand the 0-5 degrees in euro now:(

oh well the (double)date ended with us asking a stranger at the mrt to take pics for us.we should have spoken to her in a chinese/jap accent so we wouldn't have to lose face-_-

tired now.report not finished.feeling cold.nice day though.love my friends.love this world:)

thanks Jesus.

You are my all in all:)

as much as i guessed, i have to work past my last day of work cuz my report is not completed:( this sucks.

went to shu's house today i felt so silly ok.first i walked to the wrong block, 231.then at the correct block, i go down the wrong stairs, so only haf 2 houses.then i went climbed back up and went down another flight of stairs, and WRONG again. then after like 10 minutes i found her house.i think i lost like 200 cal since i was carrying my laptop plus all the surveys plus the wires for my laptop.gosh.to think i did weights trng this morning as well.whew

oh yes shu's cat is so so fat and cute i love it!at first it was kinda scared of me then i slowly talked to it and it started to love me!i bet i saw i tinge of sadness in her eye's when i left.you know how i know?cos i'm psychic.(haha a better one than you d**y*!:D)here's a pic of her kitty which i call fei mao=fat cat


HOHOHO of course this is not her cat.but how on earth is this a cat?!?!?! looks more like a...cow-pard.

finish.

All exclaiming
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God.

blessed is he who feareth the Lord

my poor fren called me when i was showering.boohoo so poorthing all cooped up in that horrendous place called tekong.no it won't cause this friendship to slip away..don't u worry, and don't think too much.soon you will be free:D

im dying trying to complete this survey report.i feel like my arms and my brain and my fingers are gonna explode.help.

you ask me to do this and do that.you ask me to tell __ that __ is __.but don't you see that im not that kinda person to ___?it's just not me.

my life's getting boring.

u may read this

cold day.
yf prog was funny everyone in my group just boycott our own group.

2 more days before attachment ends.i think sure must do overtime cus report aso haven even started.siandiao.
i wonder if i'll freeze in europe.

okay everybody read this umay wants special mention so i shall dedicate a part of this post to her.haha umay is my sexy friend she loves me alot and i love her alot too.she always has alot of wai4 yus4 but lucky she tells me about them or else i will be quite sad.as for me, i will always stay loyal to her:D

my cute friend

she looks like she's having fun

i had to try it too:)

when we were younger

ok lionel(teo) wants to request that i blog about him too.so here's your part.finish
haha:D

i wonder how many couples out there have marriage on their minds.i wonder how many yes-es i will get if i ask them if they see themselves marrying each other.i don't know for sure, but what i know is that marriage is a holy institution, and a woman and man should be together not because they want to "try" to see which type of guy/girl is best for them, but rather because they know that God has made that special someone for them to spend their lives with.i don't know who God has made for me, and of course i want to know.im afraid that what He wants is not what i want.but who am i, an unworthy sinner, to tell Him what to do?i believe He will make all things beautiful in His time:)

how many times, have i turned away
the number is the same,as the sand on the shore
but everytime, You've taken me back
and now i pray You do it once more.

through tears and joy, i'll trust in You.

our plan din work out.h**w** was supposed to tell t***y*** that worship prac is at 9, and the rest of us will come at 9.30.but h**w** told t***y*** that it's at 9.30.but in the end h**w** was the latest-_- anw worship prac was nice as usual:)

i went to vivo and shopped alone while waiting for mummy.as usual, the visual (not-so)appeals:

this is so cute!

dawn of the japanese

this is nice.zara,$119!!!!!!

u'll realise that some of the clothes i try, i'll never ever buy them.not because they're too ex, but because some are really seriously very ugly.i just try them on so that i have sth to blog about.hoho:D

2 more weeks before i fly.
i've got no motivation to go running.
tasha loves her doggie-waffle-cookie-snack.
i've got alot of survey statistical analysis to do.

You hold my world,in the palm of Your hand:)

and my joy will be complete:D

"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man.And God is faithful;He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so you can stand up under it."1Corinthians10:13

100 surveys done.it's enough!hohoho.i think the analysis part will be tough man.deadline:monday:(

attachment ends on tuesday.quite sad, but im glad to say that i've learn alot from my stay at the hospital.am really happy and amazed at the wonders of God and His goodness as well:) i pray that He will give me strength to be a good warrior so that i can fight this battle.

seventeen more days:D

into Your hands, i commit again.

eighty-six surveys.thirty-four more to go.

attachment is ending, i'm looking forward to my europe trip.i haven gotten my winter stockings, i think my feet are gonna drop off.i wonder if i should haf a birthday party this year.maybe if i get good results and am in the mood to do so.i told korh i was gonna get him those guy bracelet for his 21st birthday.he ask me how much i sae prob less than $10(i was kidding-_-).he say his aunt jacq getting one for him.$300+ one.hello.i lose.he's not even inviting me to his fish$co dinner.hello.so bad.

here are some pictures to spice up (my)your life.

pam.shi

my car

my beloved

that's all.byebye.

i am a princess!

hey everyone!i remembered today that i am a princess!u noe why? cos my father in heaven is the king of kings.since i'm His child, i am a princess!i feel so blessed:)



heyy here's sth interesting sis tay shared with us today.u see the chinese word above?it means "come" in chinese. well this is how it was written in the olden days, and u noe, it has a biblical meaning! see the cross in the centre?that's Jesus as he was crucified and hung on the cross.the two ren at either side of the cross represent the two criminals who were hung beside Jesus. and lai, or simply "come", signifies Jesus's call to us to come to Him and accept Him as our saviour. it is His call for us to come to Him when we are weary, and He will give us rest:)

it's amazing how forgiving Jesus is. even when He was wrongly accused and made to bear the sins He hadn't committed, He asked the Lord to forgive us."Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing".imagine if a mere human was up there!he would be swearing and cursing all the people of the city!

Jesus i believe, in You
Jesus i belong, to You
You're the reason that i live
You're the reason that i sing
With all i am.

survey count has gone up to fifty-seven! yahooooo man we've just got sixty-three more to go-_-

i miss school.i miss lectures.i miss tutorials.i miss studying in library.i miss training.i miss post-training showers.i miss post-training lunches. i miss pt days.i miss running days.i miss competition days.i miss celebrating birthdays.i miss all of you:(

i once was lost, but now i'm found:)

I TELL YOU ARH I WANT THIS.which is the nicest?:)

script.suede.$140


dart.$160


script.latte.$140


grapevine.$120

WAH me and shu did SEVENTEEN surveys today.that's quite good.we have 97 more to go.our aim for tmr is FIFTY.aaarrrghhhhh very tiring u noe.
in all things i have Christ who strengthens me:)

should i rebond my hair?so expensive..maybe i should get the temp straigtener.but also waste money.hmm.what do you suggest?maybe i should cut all my hair.i have nightmares about my hair sometimes hoho that's really fuuny.i've had four "nightmares" about my A level results.end of monolougue

i feel like eating prawns.

hmm i wonder if i have the ability to do something revolutionary for the eng service worship. being the chairperson(or chairgirl, as my wonderful mentor uncle kok wei puts it:P)of the worship comm, i guess i have to play a spiritaully supporting role? and to make sure things are in order and stuff.i dont really think there's much change we can do cos im like a 18 going on 19 year old girl and i wouldn't think i noe much about the Church and stuff.as in how the Church works and the methodological(??) stuff the churches have to follow.haha i dunnoe how to put it in words but nvm, let me just pray about it.

it's amazing how when ur walk of faith is closely following God's word that u no longer need to know His will, since ur will will be in His will:)

im thinking about my future and i look forward to university.i look forward to getting my results.i look forward to getting into uni.i anticipate studying medicine.im excited to see who God has planned to be my husband.im eager to graduate and get my PhD.im wondering and wondering. looking forward to the day Jesus flips open that Book of life in which my name is written, and then he invites me to go stand with Him beside the Father's throne. i look forward that your name, too, will be written in that book.

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you know how sometimes we lose grip of or faith in God and we start to question His existence,and we ask Him to prove to us that He is there.we bargain with Him like He is a business contractor and say "do this God, and i'll do that". but who are we to put the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords to the test?who are we but unworthy sinners not deserving of the crumbs at the table?the gift of faith is from God to us, not the other way round.

tiring day i spent 6 hours and managed to complete THREE surveys.whee at this rate i need 3 months to complete the 120 surveys, but i only have one week-_- it's really quite hard you know, and i understand because it is a sensitive issue..

things im gonna do pre-holiday trip:
go jogging
bring tasha to bishan park with dwaynubi if he is not too tired and if he wants
things im gonna do during holiday trip:
buy a pair of shades for myself
buy a handbag for myself
buy sth for my yf group
(hopefully)buy sth for michilary
buy sth for dw
things im gonna do post-holiday trip:
sign up for driving(i've been procrastinating on this for really reaaaallly looong)
sign up for readers' digest
sin up for malay language lesson(who want?pamhil joining)
extract my wisdom teeth
sign up for diving class

my good friend called from army again, and guess what he's doing?swatting mosquitos!hoooooray please!! hoho that's really funny all the insects get killed by the fumigation except the mosquitoes they're sharing the beds with the army-boys.poorthings.never mind about that. the thing is that i think my dear friend is spending less time working out then when he was NOT in army!that's rather saddening hoho but it's his (bad)luck to be in the same company as all the m***s**rs s**s.hehe:)see you soon my friend!

hmm i realise my LIFE is starting after my attachment ends:)

me, myself and God

climbing up the spiritual growth ladder

ok something loserish happened this morning.i was in the bus on my way to church and at the busstop after mine i saw nick coming up the bus.i knew he was going to church since his church=dw church is 3 busstops away from my church. so well he went upstairs while i was downstairs.when he alighted, i went like "NICK!" really really REALLY loudy. but LO AND BEHOLD he didn't hear me-_- so i looked like a super loser trying to act like i haf alot of friends:(

i thought bible study was quite good.more sharing and learning, and actually i din realise this b4, but when everyone comes tgt and share there's alot of new ideas that i nv thought of before, even though i thought i thought of every possible answer alrd.tt's pretty cool:D and this series of bs is like lifeskills kinda thing, so it's more interesting, i guess, for the youths.hehe

cult stayover soon.venue=my house.jiaxin wants to exploit my hospitality-ness.cult stayovers-must-haves:sparkling juice and apple chips(only michilary needs this).but i haf no $$ alrd anyone wanna sponsor?oh yes and me n jia decided to go clementi to eat THAT tangyuan and shortstreet to eat THAT tauhuay.super delicious.if u treat me i will be very happy:)

oh and me n jia are having anorexic symptoms.not that we LOOK like we are anorexic, just that we keep complaining of getting fat.quite amusing haha i conclude that she will suffer worse temptation from me when she in taiwan cuz the food there is soo cheap n yummy. whereas in france,it's yummy but EXPENSIVE.but i prob eat alot of pizza in italy, and that's bad coz of the CARBOHYDRATES OVERLOAD hohoho.

finish.tata.that's all.bbye:)

friends.church.friends.

fulfilling day.inspired.tired.

met sherryberry today.my sexy momo was trying on clothes when i HAVEN'T REACHED so i couldn't find her in the shop.hoho anw i picked up my entitled THREE clothing and she as well and here goes my fashionista bonanza(today only got two)

i like this


me n sherry agreed that this dress looks like a garbage bag-_-

after a while i hopped off to the CAC Board of Youth Ministry(BYM) conference.when i saw the set up i was quite freaked out cos it was a BOARDROOM and everyone was seated around the table.that kind of setting is really quite intimidating.but well the adults especially were hilarious and the casual discussion was good in a sense that everyone could share freely and there wasn't like pressure or anything. im quite inspired by these youth workers, and i really support their vision:to see youths from different CAC churches coming together for a time of fellowship, knowing each other and perhaps even making friends. really good chance to widen our pool of christian friends:)

hmm and im interested in the buru mission trip.i think a 5D4N thing would be quite good, sure get to know more people from other churches and i guess it will be a good opportunity to reach out to these "untouched grounds in indonesia.hope our youths would be encouraged and inspired to participate in this mission too. have to sacrifice quite alot of time though because there's trng and workshops stuff before the mission trip.

at night was PIZZA PARTAAEEE at gw&yl hse!everyone was quite tired so no one posed for the cam(except me n jia) so here are a few unglam shots hehe:P

tiff looks really cute here!


spidey on the guitar


hil.pam.no cult without mich:(

bus ride home was really cold.mich helped me save money by screaming for me to FLASH my ez-link card.

note-worthy note of the day:thou shall specify the implants thou is referring to

a good friday

i miss school.i miss my friends.i miss volleyball.

i went diving todae i saw some fish friends.fish are friends not food!


nemo and friend


yellow fish


blue fish

nice?i like the clownfish he was really cute playing with the sea anemone.hmm actually i wasn't diving i was just looking at a $35,000 aquarium.(NKF HAS 6 OF THOSE I THINK im gonna take my diving course when i return from europe i wanted to take last december but....NO MONEY.anyone wanna take with me?i think jiajia wants but i scared to haf her as my diving buddy after she laosai then attract al the sharks n killer whales-__-

party todae was hilarious i lauged until my stomach and mouth face cramp.let the pics do the talking.

from this...

to this.


from this...

to this.


from this...

to this!

really funny everyone was trying to cheat in some little way.but it was a really nice party!seeing all the nurses laughing so loudly and madly makes me think of my cult.our happy cult:)

hohoho i was sitting in medi-books store todae and i was finding the meaning of names.if u find yours here, good for you.that means you're someone i gave this blog address to.haha

pamela:greek.all sweetness.honey
lionel:french.lionness cub
michelle:herew.who is like God?
hilary:latin.greek.cheerful
dwayne:irish.little and dark

haha if ur name is here i tot of you while i was stoning/slacking.time for me to go off hoho bye bye.youth advisor conference tmr so scary!!

God will make a way..

amazing love, how can it be?

i am very very very VERY happy today!

sis tay shared her life story with us, and she took the opportunity to share God's word with us too.she has a really nice way of putting things i think she'll make a good preacher:)yup and by GOD'S AMAZING GRACE shuting accepted Jesus!wow im realli amazed man i don't know what to sae.

well about 4 years ago i was suffering from depression.i didn't know what on earth was i here for and i didn't see any meaning to life.i was lonely and sad and angry and confused all at the same time.i never knew that there was a friend up there who was desperately calling out to me to hold on to His hand.i hated myself and i hated my life.i saw many things that could lead me to end all the misery i was going through.i saw the gas pipes and the staircases, but never did i see the joy or love that people around me were experiencing. i hated living.

then God sent a friend along to help me.in fact, he sent many friends.and when i came to read the bible and be in the preence of His people, i started experiencing love for the first time. not the type of BGR love, but the true genuine sincere type of love that u can never find anywhere else.i began to see myself worhsipping this God who created the heavens and earth. i saw a God who created me.

it's in the midst of these people that God lets me find peace and rest.i share openly with them knowing that they are not judgemental.it's different, i would say, from the type of stuff u share with ur other friends in school or at work. it's like a family type of sharing, and i like it.

sis tay's sharing made me want to seek God all over again, to experience the first love i tasted when i accepted Him into my heart. makes me wanna know Him more and makes me wanna please Him.

something to think abt: If a carpenter created a chair with his own hands, would he adore it and make it more important or greater then him?if your answer is no, then why more should the Gods and statues that Man ceated be worshipped, since the creator of these things is no one else but the human himself?
therefore i say the one and only true God we believe in, who created us, is worthy of our worship; beacuse we worship our Creator, and not what we ourselves create.

(parenthesis:P)okay mich i will call you out soon but anw i went shopping alone again today while waiting for ah kym to come meet me. here's a nice dress i saw:)

zara

haha so boring right only one piece.but i was really quite lazy to try clothes today becuase vivo was really shost city.and i don't like walking into customer-less boutiques cos the salesgirls will just freak me out and scare me and make me pee in my pants.

hohoho the partaeeee's tmr korh's koping the cam i won't have high resolution pics prob like lousy pokgai pics for all you pple to see:(

my hobby

Passion
im forgiven, because You were forsaken
i'm accepted, You were condemned
i'm alive and well, Your spirit is within me
because You died and rosae again

amazing love, how can it be
that You my King would die for me
amazing love, i know it's true
and it's my joy to honour You
in all i do, i honour You

You are my King
You are my King
Jesus You are my King
Jesus You are my King.

my hobby
i like pressing flowers and leaves.they become really nice smelling and they look nice and dry.i dry the flowers i receive and make cards and presents out of them:)

untouched


mich's birthday card

i've made some more but i didn't take pics of them.if u want a nice birthday card come and be my friend!haha:D

today was really tiring longest art and craft lesson i had since sec 2.but me and shuting had quite a relaxing time i guess haha here are some funny stuff we made!

we wrapped this food hamper


the essence of it.


i drew this..


and these..


shu made this..


and this..


and this.

you must be wondering what on earth were we doing.okay let me explain.you know the game "pin the tail on the donkey"?where one person is blindfolded and led by his teammates to pin the tail on the donkey(duhh-_-). well our game is "pin the _____ on the ____(doctor, nurse, patient). you must also be wondering who are we going to play this game with?well...it's for the NURSES at ncc.they sure ain't as young as us but let's just hope they will be enthu about our game durin the soc party 'cos we REALLY spent alot of time preparing:)

so at the end of the game, hopefully it will turn out like this(imcomplete though):


hoho we still got lotsa things to prepare we spent $100 alrd.under budget but im glad because i really do like to save money, although it's not mine:D
oh yes im confirmed leaving on the 12th of feb and will be back on the 4th of march.do miss me thanks:)heehee

that's all for today's entry thanks for coming by.look out for an update on the party which will be this fri.i believe i have added some smiles to at least 3 minutes of your life.thanks for treating my blog as a source of entertainment as well.HAH!

my hair

my hair is long and messy and out of style i don't know if i look better with it down or with it up.mum says up is better because it's less messy.well well hoho when i went shopping along the streets today i realise that alot of people look at me.im not being buayhiaobai, but mebbe because i like people watching, that's why i THINK people are looking at me but probably they are looking at some oil on my face or some pimple on my nose or stte.yeah.

or maybe they're looking at my hair-_-

well whatever the case i would like to think they're looking at me because im worthy of a second glance, in a good way of course. like how i look at good-looking guys for a little while longer if i spot them walking along the streets. oh i realise something about myself lately. whenever i see a couple walking my way, i will naturally walk to the lady's side. i dunnoe why..but it's quite amusing:)i guess im quite wary when it comes to looking at guys who are alrd attached, because i sure won't want my eyes to get dug out o_0

my shoes and heels are spoilt and tatterred and torn i found a pair of sandals i liked and i bought it:D


hmm this is rather out of point but u know those clothes u wear at home which are super old and torn n holey but u NEVER wanna throw them away 'cos they're just so so very comfy but u will NEVER WANNA BE CAUGHT DEAD by your friends in them?i found two shirts which fit this category today. don't laugh please 'cos i realli like them alot but i think it's time i move on:(


charlie brown, six years


flowers, three years

oh yes let me share sth interesting that i read today with you.
just friends?oh yeah,right.the straits times, life, monday 15jan 2007, by jeremy au yong
most men don't think there is such a thing as a platonic relationship;they just don't want women to know that.
i'm talking about a man and a woman who call each other "best friends", who share their thoughts and feelings, and yet...have never had any romantic interest in each other..the male stand is:"there is no such think as a completely platonic relationship..for any good heterosexual friendship to blossom, guys need a romantic spark to get it off the ground...probably one of the reasons he's "just friends" now is because he couldn't get up the courage to tell her in the first place.and since the feeling is gone, darn if he's going to tell her now.

haha this is a really interesting article try to grab hold of it in your thick newspaper stack, cos there's a bit more that what i've written.but the gist of it is here. well i think what it says in the article is rather true, but i don't really noe haha what do you guys think?

anyway i've been meditating on the verse to "love your neighbour as you love yourself".kinda working im becoming more forgiving and less ngiaow at plpe who like hit u with their handbag or step on your slippers or whatver:D

im preparing for snow

u know how it's really really cold these days.my toes are gonna hibernate and drop off soon. maybe this is a good practice for me before i embark on my journey to france.haha:)

oh yes dwayne just called me from camp.so nice of him im really glad God gave me this friendship and im happy we embraced it in God's love:) anw dw says it's quite slack in there we guess it's prob cuz it's the first 3 days and they haven shown the recruits their mean n torturous side yet. he saes they've been waiting and waiting around not doing anything.very funny coz he sounds so disappointed he prob was looking forward to like xiong trainings and pt and stuff.he says they're starting tmr well let's hope he doesn't regret his wish!haha:P looking forward to his POP then we can go out more often and oogle at NUMS-_- haha

ytd's qt was amazing it was on the same bible verse that pastor goh talked about.guess i should really meditate on matthew 22:34 n 39, the two greatest commandments of God to us. i really wanna learn how to love God totally and especially how to love my enemies.

hmm i just bought a whole lot of stuff for the hampers for the soc party here's a pic!

tasha doing a spotcheck on the goodies!

i did some shopping ALONE today and spent like 1.5 hours at CHINATOWN.i know u must be thinking i was shopping for bakgua or some chinese herbal tea or what-not, but i was actually shopping for clothes ok! and it's not the ulu ulu type it's actually quite nice here's TWO pics. i actually tried about 20 articles but was too tired to whip out my phone to snap pictures:(

i like this and i bought it.


i look rather skinny in this but it's just an illusion-_-

yes!at last i bought a piece of clothing for myself.for my mom and those who know me well enough, i don't actually buy myself clothes even if i see one that i really like 'coz i NEED my mum's opinion.that's the way things are.i love my mum:)
oh and i bought a 3-quarts pants too and a button was missing i asked if i could get a DISCOUNT but she sae cannot cos it's a new arrival. but the salesgirl was very nice about it she took out a box full of nice n funky n unusual buttons and helped me choose a pretty one and sewed it on for me:D i like salespeople like these i would go there to shop again.

yup so just remember to treat me nice and i'll give u a BIG, WIDE, SMILE!

another winter sonata

"love the Lord your God with all your heart with all soul and with all your mind...Love your neighbour as yourself" -matthew 22:37,39

i like today's sermon it was nice, particularly because we sat close together as a big family and i felt cosy and warm:)hope every sunday everyone would come forward and sit together.

hmm sometimes i still find it hard to forgive some people.u will never understand how hurt i was when u threw me behind and decided to seek your own happiness.u will never feel that same hurt i felt when i was all alone crying and thinking how our friendship would never be the same again.but i came before God and asked Him to forgive you, and to forgive me.i didn't know what to do, so i turned to Him.and it's amazing how sometimes the Lord just nudges you like a good ol' pal and tells you what to do.and u feel the comfort and sense of security when u start talking to Him; the same feeling like when u sit beside your best friend and tell him/her all your secrets and stuff, knowing that they're in safe hands.

but then again when i think of how You took away my friend from me, took him away from my life, i become angry at You.You told me that if i prayed You'd answer my prayer, but i didn't want a NO.i wanted a YES.You saw how sad i was when i leant against the walls and cried secretly in a corner,yet You made me crumble when You took all the small hope i had left in me.all You had to do was to breathe in him the breath of life, but You didn't.i kept the faith You asked me to keep yet You didn't return him to us.im angry, although i know i shouldn't be.

but when i realised one day that he's there with You in a place called heaven,i began to see more clearly Your amazing grace. im sorry i ever was angry at You.

well it's a nice day and im just thinking thoughts:)

pastor louis and pastor goh were really hilarious at the eng service worship comm mtg!we just keep giggling and talking nonsense and pastor goh called me HAM-_-.haha and we were quite evil we asked him to guess all the initials and there was this "yl" and he said yulan, and although it was correct we say "wrong!it's yongliang". then when he said "oh yongliang ah" we said "wrong!it's yilun." and when he said "oh yilun ah" we said "wrong!it's yea ling"(notice all the initials are yl) haha so we just went mad and when we ask him to guess who is PAM, he didn't know who was it. so i said "ME!" and he looked at me with a funny face i wanted to burst out laughing but i kept it inside so i almost farted. esp the part where pastor goh say must leave the first two rows empty, me and mich just went berserk!haha and these kind of meetings are really amusing cause u start seeing how people try desperately to arrow other people to be chairpersons n ic but in the end everyone veto here and vote there and the person still ends up taking up the role-_-

ok im tired and it's been a really long time since i watched a movie the last movie i think it's X-men.that's quite sad but don't u laugh becuase it's YOUR fault 'cos u never invite me to watch movie with YOU.

hmph.

cold, cold day.

it's a realli cold day im putting on my winter clothes.

last night jiajia stayed over n we talked alot of shit (as usual), and we bluffed guowei that she ran away from home.haha but both of us were too sian n tired to continue on msn jiajia say they way i type messages is just like to entertain the person on the other end only .hahha that's quite evil:P

oh yes dw went in to army todae tt means i haf officially no more guy friends to:
talk to & bore with my life & drink a really large cup of milkshake although we feel like puking alrd & listen to theories to & walk to NUM and want to walk back in & bring nubi on a walk & sing horribly with falsettos with & look out for good looking people at orchard road but end up pointing at more not good-looking ones & be my friend:( this is quite saddening but army sucks.hahaha

AND jiajia slept all the way to 815 she realli makes use of last-minuteness and worship prac is at NINE and she was still not late (err..not the latest i mean).she's good man hahaha!

and then at abt 10 me n korh trooped down to aunt jacq's hse to haf lunch and borrow winter clothes.she's really cute she keep pestering korh to let her see his phone but he dun let-_-.and WAH THE CALAMARI IS DELICIOUS MAN and there was like quite alot left and she ask us to eat korh was gay and said "aiya dun want la so many pimples" then aunt jacq said "eat so much alrd then sae got pimple!" haha funny arh funny so i ate all of the rest:P

so we tried the clothes WOW realli nice nice pretty pretty clothes man it was like a ZARA-LV-COACH-EVERYOTHERSHOP room haha i felt like i was shopping at the mall!so i ended up borrowing 2 coats one realli beautiful scarf a pair of gloves a beanie(i like!) 2 turtle-necks. realli comfy clothes, THANK YOU AUNT JACQ!

then we had haagen daz rum n raisin ice cream i din noe it was that nice until i tried it!got a very milky n reminiscing taste abt it..yummylicious at its best!

OH YES funniest thing that happened was that korh broke a wine glass with his head o_0 u must be thinking how he did that.well my very intelligent bro was sitting at the bar counter at aunt jacq's hse and he leaned forward to peep at some christmas goodies in this small little box and then CLANGGG the wine glass hanging atop his head knocked each other and tadaa..he broke one of them.haha ok blame it on the big brains(with deep fissures for all u bio geeks out there that runs in the family haha and hence the big head:D

oh and another thing..aunt jacq suggested we get disposable cotton underwear haha that was quite amusing.so korh is gonna get like a hundred of them, cuz he sae one day breakfast, lunch and dinner must change into a diff one -_-

ANNOUNCEMENT!anyone of u got anything u would like me to help get for u from 1.france 2.london 3.italy? im currently getting a LV bag and this nice honeydew-ish drink with quite low alcoholic content for aunt jacq from italy.she says it's a realli refreshing drink and it sounds delicious so my bro and i decide tt mebbe we should dhl i carton back!haha just kidding:P anyone wants a bottle too?(it's not cheap but u can treat me sth else haha bhb:P)or any other special things that u can onli get at these 3 places tell me k!it's a good chance cos we get tax rebate!haha cheapskate:D

i've been thinking of some pple and some friendships and i miss them so much.especially the times in sch when we were bestest friends and spent the bestest times forever together at the bestest mugging spots in school.and im glad to see my friends growing up staying strong and i love them for being so. i just feel like turning back time and wishing that all good things will last.

well,i had a really nice day today and i thank the Lord for it:) i have to start thinking about vocalists groupings for worship teams and also my commitment to worship leading.i actually enjoy leading worship, prob cos i realli like singing. but sometimes looking at the response makes me kinda scared because..i dont' know hehe everyone looks bored :/

well this is a rather long entry i shall not continue!im gonna visit sherryberry next sat and i must rmbr to get her a yummy chocolate cake!i know secret recipe has a fantastic one:D

great shopping.tired feet

wheeee just back from a looong day, mostly slacking.best part was shopping because jiaxin is crazy.
here are some pics to keep u entertained:)

hundredth customer to MOS(burger)!


sisers?!?!?!


kisskiss!


pathetically caught in the rain

okay so actualli before we started all these nonsense we were shopping for clothes, and as usual, we took pictures illegally.here are some clothes u can buy for me if u wish too!hehehehe:)

sexy number one


sexy number two


sexy number three

hahah jiaxin is irritated with me now she don't want me to blog anymore!grr ok just to satisfy your curiosity, i didn't buy any of those clothes, because..i don't know:P