And...

talking to you makes me happy,
amidst the hidden sadness.

but it's alright, because i treasure beautiful times.

the gastric struck, and im not doing anything about it.

how come my mass is stuck and not decreasing anymore?

it's a wonder how im so stressed up right now near max stress level when it's only mid-week 3. GOSH my hair is turning white and my eyes and cheeks are sagging. why am i aging so quickly?

must be sep stuff.

and not to mention the gazzilion readings i have to do, esp on plant biodiversity.

the onli 2 mods im on the ball and on time and even ahead of readings is stats and french. let's just hope imparfait wun be too hard tmr, and i wun read the wrong chap for stats on thurs, and i wun be late for anat tmr which is 10000 km from arts, and that anat lecturer wun be teaching wrong concepts like all cells have nucleus, and that my initial study plan will be appoved, and that bs prep wun be to xiong, and that cg wun be stressful, and that ride home wun be too long and tiring, and that thurs will be a good day, and that tuition will be fruitful for yw, and that it wun rain then, and that i can find sem rm 3 @ yih, and that social actions will keep me thinking and reflecting, and that friday will be a good day although i have lessons ALL THE WAY FROM 10-6PM and have worship comm meeting at 8pm.

ok that's alot of hope to need to hope for so many things.

goodnight, i need my sleep or else i will be sleepy in class.

did you know..

that i was so sad when you told me what you told me.

but i choose to be nonchalent, just so you wouldn't see through me.

do you know that i do not know how i manage to seem so happy and cheerful on the outside,

yet feel so sad and helpless inside?


do you know that if you leave, i would rather not have ever known you, just so i wouldn't be feeling how i am feeling right now?

do you know that im praying for all these, so that one day i will realise that God is making things beautiful in His time?


do you know what kind of a girl i am, not yet a woman, not yet ready?

but now that you're leaving, maybe i don't need to be ready anymore.

oh my my

FIVE MORE DAYS.
how to finish.
dead:(

tuesday

If everyone had a bank, and everyday, we are given $86400 to use. at the end of the day, there is no carry forward, no over-draft. everything that is unused will be taken away. how will we spend this money?

Each of us is given a bank something like this. everyday, we are given 86400 seconds to use. at the end of the day, every second not used carefully will still be erased, and any unused time cannot b carried forward.

Really, what are we doing with the time God has given to us?how much of this time am i devoting to God?

Some parents say that although they spend a short time with their children every day/week, what they spend is quality time..

REALLY?

so what is quality time? is any second of more quality than another?

i don't think so.

--
a lecturer was teaching his students on time management. he took a jug, and placed some big rocks in it until no more big rocks could fit in. he then asked his class, "is the jar full?"

everyone resounded with a yes.

then he took some pebbles and poured them into the jar until they reached the brim. "is the jar full now?" asked the lecturer.

this time, no one dared to answer.

then the lecturer poured some fine sand into the jar, and filled it to the brim."is the jar full now?" he asked.

"yes" came the replies from the students.

then the lecturer took a pitcher of water and poured it into the jar.

"what is the lesson we can learn?" asked the lecturer.

at once, many hands shot up. one student answered, "no matter how busy our schedule is, we can always squeeze in more things to do."

"WRONG!" said the lecturer.

"the lesson learnt is this: we must place the big rocks into our lives first, before the smaller ones can go in."

what are the big rocks in our lives? is is Christ, or is it our school work, relationships, ccas and family? are we placing Christ as first priority in our schedule, before fitting in others?

how do i become a better steward of of my time?
--

im so hungry, i could do well with a bowl of fishball noodles. i ate an apple for lunch and haven eaten dinner. gawsh so anorexic i might as well skip tmr's meals too.

school today was fun. school IS fun anw, just that i dun like exams:P

flew over to ctrl library after biod with zoey to meet daniel and darryl. GAWSH it's been so long since i've seen the both of em! and it's always heartwarming to see familiar faces around in sch, esp if they are from vcf=)

the bus ride was a killer i was sure i could fall and sit on the floor my cg (centre of gravity not contact group zoey-.- ) was so off.

and luckily we are girls we could sit on the btc1!

ft was fun i like!i like meeting old and new friends at ft=)=) i met long lost friend SHEN KIAT wah lose my number summore!talked to a record number of pple, namely: zoey nic, cheryl, sien, ivan,daniel,guangrong, matthew beard tay, chris, darryl, zx, yuxuan, nelson,sk, yiling.. i think tt's all..hmm i should start making more friends in cf!(=

smoley friend, for you:
on saturday i went with smoley friend to get rims! super cool i never EVER saw myself shopping for car stuff! and i realise it IS very fun to do so..esp if u got a VERY GOOD FRIEND'S CAR TO VANDALISE with soft plushy soft toys and cushions and soft steering wheels and seatbelt cushy stuff HAHA dw is so going to kill me if i really deco his car like that he says im like auntie.HUMMMPH!

and we're so getting older, cuz we ate mixed veg rice for lunch. HAHA economic rice crisis!(=

as im reaching for You

the same old story.


maybe it's because i have too few of these, that's why im afraid of losing.
maybe im not supposed to be feeling this way, but i can't control it.
maybe im not angry, im just hurt.
maybe it's just me.

so why did i do what i did?i really don't know..

all i know that it costed me you.

and as much as i want to turn back times and relive the moments we once shared, i can't be sure that i wouldn't feel the same way..




as what im feeling now.

maybe i need to do some thinking...


because maybe, just maybe...




i'd be like you one day.

j'ai presque pleure pendent le trajet chez moi ce soir.

i need a new bone specialist

i thought,


and i was hurt.

goodbye.

Auriculotemproal nerve

it's a happy day!and i praise God for the weather
it's a happy day! living for my Lord!
it's a happy day!things are gonna get better,
living each day by the promises in God's word=)

korh's back home safe!praise God.

2 more days and SCHOOL STARTS!it's a bit of aaacccckk and abit of wooooooot. timetable is quite nice my earliest lessons start at 10am!if iteration exercise goes well i'll be a happy girl!

motivation for this semester:pull my socks cap up.

brought tasha to the vet ytd. doctor says she's "doing very well, considering she's ancient." tasha really loves her basket she kep trying to climb back in when i put her on the examination table!

quite a scene at the animal clinic there was this bullmastiff(i think?not sure) that jumped onto a golden retriever then the owner pulled it away then the golden retriever wanted revenge and struggled free from it's leash and went after the bullmastiff! was quite scary may was in the middle of the commotion she wanted to pull back the golden retriever but it was so huge!!aunt celine says that maybe because the owner speaks to the golden retriever in chinese (it's from england for pet's (no pun intended) sake)tt's why it's so naughty.hiak.

anw there was this really ooooold dog which is blind and realli realli extremely old. and i overheard the nurse asking the owner,"so do u need the death certificate?"
oh myy so sad they were going to put the doggie to sleep:'( so when it was the owner's queue number he went into the room with the dog in the basket thing then he came out with only the empty basket and the collar.

i was so sad when i saw that.

when it's tasha's turn, i think i will be so very extremely tremendously heartbroken:'(

tasha is really cute she's sleeping right now. i rmbr tt day when she snored SO loudly i had to turn up the volume on the tv. she didn't sleep much the past two days cuz her incontinence was disturbing her. but the medicine is really good man one dose and she felt much better. God is good!
and ytd another pet owner asked me if tasha goes to church:)

i smell chicken rice.

i've decided to stick with 2 students, as much as the lure of $$ tempts me.

ok off to pack the house. i want to go to chinatown!

living each day by Your promises

i feel so cold.

school is starting in 5 days.i'm looking forward to the holidays.

korh's coming home on friday!!=)

today i did alot of housework. swept the floor, mopped the floor, tidied korh's table, cleaned my room, washed my toilet, washed tasha's mattress, bathed tasha, tidied the junk cupboard, cooked for myself.

i've not eaten mum's cooking for...3 months?

chinese new year is coming.excited!(:

goodbye

would i let You carry me on the tightrope?

CORS.
school starts.
ANATOMY:):):).
exams.
holidays.
norway.
europe?=)
no money=(

and His word is true

been doing lotsa stuff lately.

the last moments of 2007 will be remembered, because i spent them with my very best friend=)

it was a really good talk, and the weather was A.O.K.

it's a new year, and i need time for myself and God. when will i ever learn to spend more time with Him?

i guess what im experiencing right now, the level of understanding i have with and of Him, can only be understood by myself. and i really ask that You lead me to the soils that are meant to have my footprints, to the ministry that my heart burdens for...

but somehow, in a really funny way, i no longer seem to feel you. it's interesting how i felt what i felt some time back. but right now, that feeling just seems so...

raw.

and maybe im glad i did nothing when i felt what i felt.

it's 3 months to BIG 2-0. gawsh i feel so old and when i told may how old i felt the immediately slapped a "shut up la im 27." haha=)

went to equinox today it's nice! my ears popped when we were up there too! high tea was kinda ok, not reeeaaaaaly good but ne pas mauvais! mais les toilettes sont tres comfartable et magnifique.

yes and i completed reading my french1 notebook. time to move on to textbook, then french 2. oh no i feel the stress coming!

and God is good, i got anatomy.

what shall my last module be?

went to clarke quay just now, and i must say the night life there is very vibrant! lots of pubs and cafes and restaurants, and the riverside is extremely pretty and romantic on this breezy chilly night. i love it there, minus the random ahpeks who shoot weird looks hehe.

central mall isn't realli nice to shop..cuz i din get anything:)

g2000 saaaalesss mummmmmy when are u ever going to get a day off from work?:'(

counting the days till school reopens...

hey my smoley friend are u feeling ok? how are u going to celebrate your big TWO.ZERO.? did u eat the apple crumble at elevens again:D