a chapter of my life.

aprof tan is super nice:):)

mum said "pamela is the darling of our family"
aprof said "yeah i can see that!"

so when he was cleaning the wound he hummed the song "my darling" haha so funny i din notice that until mum told me afterward. i noticed the humming but i din noe it was that song la..

so before he pulled out the long tube that was stuck in my neck he said,
"pamela, would you lift up your left leg?"

so i lifted it up and then he said "ok, u can put it down now, that was just to distract you". LOL when i was lifting up my leg he pulled out the tube! and i felt a little "pop" liddat la but wah it's a good method leh haha cuz before that i was TOTALLY focused on the wound cuz he was cleaning it it kinda hurt.

and because i was lying down and if u noticed when u get up from bed u haf to use the muscles at your chest/neck area, so i couldn't get up. aprof tan was v nice he said "don't worry!" and he lifted me up.

oh boy these 3 days i feel so handicapped and weak.

and i was suddenly thinking that maybe males make better doctors/surgeons because they can help their patients who are weak. like i dun think a female doc would haf the strength to lift me up from lying to sitting position. and seriously, a strong doctor gives me a sense of security.

i wanna say thank you to mummy and daddy for taking care of me!!!love loads<3 <3 daddy's always very concerned about me but just that man/guys/males don't really show their soft side you noe..hehe and daddy lifted me up from bed on the first day of my op too so strong!!!whooot i din even have to use any energy and tadaa i was in sitting position. and mummy is ultimate la cook for me send me to and from hospital flag taxi kanchiong when she looked into the op theatre and everyone was out of their scrubs and she couldn't see me she rush all the way back to the ward and whew i was there alrd. and nice korh keep smsing me from army asking how i am and all my friends who prayed for me n msged me mich.kym.joel.kw.yulan.nat.dw.daryl.jeannette and im sure many more were praying for me too:):) THANK YOU EVERYONE!

and i long to tell mummy someday that all the good things that happened like my driving test and my funny tester and my smooth operation and my recovery were due to the love from God, the prayers from my friends and family, the healing power of the Almighty.

but until that day, mummy believes that it is the power of chanting.

so i continue to pray for your salvation

school is starting and i have so many CAs and reports and term essays im so gonne faint.

dizzy

i passed my driving test(: God is good!
tester was rather funny. but im too tired to describe in detail.

operation was alright. GA was rather cool i din even feel like i was going to pass out it's like breathe in-breathe out-breathe in blank. the last thing i remembered doing was breathing.

and when i woke up the nurses were calling me.

and there's this huge ulcer on my lips cuz i bit it while struggling under GA when they were trying to intubate me -.- unglam.

the wound is painful now esp so when i swallow. there's a needle+tube sewn onto my neck to let the liquid+blood drain out. and i have to carry the bottle of blood around. sign painful:(

bealgh liddat how to study?

ecrit

desirs...ecrivez en quelques lignes ce que vous voudriez faire pendant les vacances:

je voudrias aller en Norvege avec mon frere. je voudrias aussi sortir es aller a Taiwan avec mes amies. je voudrias aller a la plage jouer a volleyball.

je suis une etudiante de la universite nationale du singapour. je m'appelle Pamela. mon nom c'est tock, mon prenom c'est pamela. j'ai age dis-neuf. j'habite a bishan, c'est loin d'ici, pgp. j'apprends francais. c'est langue un peu difficile, mais utile es interestent.

j'adore parle francais. je voudrais parler francais avec mon cousin.

j'aime mon pere, ma mere, mon fere es mes amies(:

voila! j'ai un test de main. je voudrais du test c'est facile!

bon suit, au revoir!

sad.

how would i ever know if my feelings for you are true?

:'(

nus.my life

blah.
sch has been rather enjoyable i THINK, except the frequent tests and tutorials and more frequent lab reports. 1102 labreports rocks cuz they need to be SHORT unlike 1101 and 1121 which has to be LONG(: for that i give thanks!

and 1121 test was quite facile!-french for easy. 10 marks given to draw 5 isomers oh my that is really giveaway in jc the qn will cost only like 3-5 marks:\ and so that's 5 qns which cost 40 marks i think above 30 should be no problem..let's wait and see!

and what ticks me off is that some people don't concentrate and dun listen during class, laugh at the prof's accent instead of try to listen carefully and understand, then complain about everything being so difficile-french for difficult. AND what perks me even more is that they obviously want to COPY my work. hello? if u dun understand just ask lah or COPY BLATENTLY so that i can see that u dun understand and i will teach you>:( and no im not gonna let u copy. this has been my stand for the past 7 years and it shall still remain. someone said im sefish before when i told her that i don't let others copy my work. i dun think that's being selfish.

ANDANDAND another thing omg i should go to prison for this. i threw away the DNA that was collected thinking that the other substance left in the tube was what was supposed to be kept. oh my gawsh that was the stupidest mistake i made ytd and prob will be for the rest of my lab life:(

and it amazes me sometimes how pple don't forgive easily.

and blame others so easily for sth that has gone wrong.

and be really really irritating by making me feel really really uncomfortable sitting beside them.

but i believe im growing up, and have been meditating in my heart more often these days. it's at times when i feel so weak and helpless in this cruel world that my God picks me up and shows me the way. i need to be an imitator of Christ. let me try.

just 3 days ago dw and i were talking about marriage and family and life and children as generally as it could get.-ie not OUR marriage etc but our personal plans for the future and stuff. and he commented that "see, we are getting old alrd, discussing about these things" HAHA i totally agree man conversations used to revolve arounf school and food and dogs and philosophies and theories(it still does la haha:D ) gawshhh getting old.

but at least im still a teenager, just as u are haha so enjoy!(:

french is my fav module now. i'll prob cont taking it next sem and all the sems to come. im planning to take malay too! think it'll be fun! then i'll be able to speak eng mandarin french malay haha quadralingual? cooooool:)

aaahhh driving test coming reeeeaaaall soon so scary!

sk is really nice he's going to cook for me this fri!

been sleeping more these days..i think it's the nice weather(=

i've been meeting nice pple arnd, and i really thank God for them. just ytd i was talking to this grad student near the sci canteen..she's working at nuh and doing a survey on some entrepreneuship thing. she was pretty excited when she knew i was doing life sci-biomed sci cuz apparently she wanted to to that last time but she cudden get in, and she went to australia to study. and in cg also there are many nice pple like yiwen(who seems fierce but is quite nice actaulli, and she inspires me cuz she makes an effort to talk to pple who are being left out) becks(who is the sci mummy haha now she calls me pampam and joel jojojojoel that is hilarious and she really is like a mummy la she's very motherly) jeanette(who seemed REALLY fierce during foc but is in fact quite lame and mad and playful!) joel(this one no need to sae is really sillydilly funny crazy playful lame mad but is nice in his own way) ivan(who always shares with us freshies about the boon and bane of life sciences and tells me what to do what not to do how to do stuff :D) gary(who is really fierce i tell you i dunnoe what he's thinking sometimes) - ok these are the pple i normally talk to im not saying that these are the only nice pple arnd(: AND notice they're all seniors?hmm..

ok ok blog to long study french!

sabbath

christianity is not a doing religion but a done faith(:

vibes

today was lousy, cuz i left my water bottle at the busstop:(

i know it's like those kind of mineral water bottle..but still..bleagh

chem lecture was quite fun at last i figured out how to look at the rectus si sth thingamagig. as i would put it, heng ah

ok cm1121 test time to redeem myself from lsm 1101.

went for tuition at 2pm!yee le's birthday his tuition tchr got him a choc cake and i got a slice too!yummylicious mmmmm(:

walked back to sch and read abit of ss then headed to sci to meet my enemy. at the busstop met jojojojoel and becks our mummy! HAHA she's like so gonna kill me if she ever chances upon this! and i told jojojojoel i know all his chou3 shi4 and he sae how i told him __ told me then he poked me and asked me not to believe anything she says so i sae "really ah?". then 3 secs later he poked me again and ask me WHAT SHE TOLD ME LOL that was funny i sae "oh she said u're a very nice person" HAHA best then he sae 'aiya ok that one true la can believe" in the zao xia voice wah HAVOC LORH WE JUST BURST OUT LAUGHING.

then social actions. i shall talk abt the pple. got to "know-better" guo yi oh my gawssshh he is realli mad one leh HE GETS OUR JOKES MICH THE COLD WATER WARM ONE MILO DINO BU YAO MILO oh my my super funny just keep unglam and laugh OUT LOUD like HIAKHIAKHIAK. i love my cg friends!

MICHMICHMICH you know or notttt aiya why u dunnoe i think 9lm u aiya tok to me and i tell you:\

update on my life!

yeah sometimes i wonder if i'd be a clown for You.

was thinking about the things that i would hold on to for dear life, and i realise that many times we sae we'd give anything up for God, but seriously, there are a few things i still find hard to sacrifice.they are:

1.my parents and my brother
2. my life
3. my freedom.

think about this, if someone appears to you one day and tell you that if you believed in God u are going to be caged up or sth, or ur family has to be killed, of stte, would you humbly submit?

actually i think won't rite, unless it's and angel that appears.

but still...aargh you get my point.

school has been rather stressing with the tests and lab reports and blah. and by blah i really mean blah.

have been eating better-normally (hmm how to express) this week, mtg mich for lunches..so it's from no meals to lunches. dinner is quite non-existent except for the exceptional cupnoodle ytd. which is good im happy i cut down on cup noodles.

there was a part of prof too lecture today that perked me up and made me excited for what im studying. the class' response was very dramamama quite hilarious.

and mfj launch day was successful. 2nd day is voided cuz of some circumstances. opportunity struck but the safari and crew decided to hide in the bushes and not disturb the prey.

wah im sure must reduce mfj(noun) to the state of an animal-.-

after lecture todae met shiyun tubby bryon etc at the sci busstop! bryon is so irritating he see me then sae "OH MY GOSH YOU ARE DAMN FAT NOW LA" haha no la jkjk he said FAIR and i just twisted his words and scold him sae wah lau u are v mean la see me then sae i fat u are v v mean. then shiyun scold him also sae cannot tok to girls liddat then he jsut give the 'eh eh no i sae fairrr!!!!" MUAHA silly gooose. then tubby was mad i scolded him for asking mich to see how many rounds she can spin her chair during lab so irritant la then we just burst out luffing bryon ask tubby to grow up. then i realise that fred they were referring to was frederick koh my pri sch friend omg small world indeed.

ok 13 minutes b4 i go down to help prep for ifg.

ok so two buses passed i din get up cuz i stayed to talk to them it was realli funny bryon is hilarious he went to sit down i shouted thru the window sae he is not gentleman go and sit down..tsktsk!

i shall super speed tmr and go home after tuition at 4pm to print notes and labreport and wash clothes then return to sch in time for social actions welcome tea at 7pm. sure late:(

and friday is combined cg outing hmm i think i should stay home and study shudden havoc so much although it's always tempting to go out and play rite:(

but next week is ODD WEEK I TOTALLY HATE ODD WEEKS i got 3 labs=3 MORE LAB REPORTS IN ADDITION TO THE 2 I ALRD HAF PLUS THE ONE I JUST HANDED IN and got FRENCH TEST and ORGANIC CHEMISTRY OH MY MAMA test and i need to read so many things i think my eyes and brain and brain juice and intestines and everything is going to spill out and disintegrate.

today siandiao the hot water dispenser the tap-thing broke hello dunnoe who break dunnoe how to fix it then i cannot get hot water:(

pictures

fromage

funny church children

bruise from fall

bruises

mmm eating yummy jelly chocolate(:

ca today was quite hard..aiyo i think sure get c or d:(

anw i think it's impossible to keep up with ALL readings. it's really IMPOSSIBLE.

2 tests next week organic chem and french.

2 lab reports. i shall do one now.

me and mich are on mfj. today was wasted trip haha mich you are really hardcore mfj.wear safari suit and guns and catapult.

i haven been spending much time at home..i want to go shopping and gaigai with mummy:'(

recess week also cannot got driving test operation derma check up blahblah one week onli do so many things.

oh my gosh DRIVING TEST. aargh

hmm thinking of some things makes me sad..but what to do? i think i forgive too easily.

but it's not a bad thing right then i guess nvm..

ok off to do lr sian:(

got cg tmr?

tired

heavy rain.

slippery steps

luckily no one saw me slip and fall super unglam:( and super painful also i totally landed on my injury gawsh.

i thought i was going to be like paralysed and be left there to rot and die but luckily i could stand up!wah and it really hurt i think got big buahlaku there now.

2 lab reports, 2 CAs, 1000000 hours of reading.

let me faint.