i can never escape from exams

oh my gawsh. can u believe it, organic chem is over.
not only that, singapore society is also over. wow. im a happy girl again=)

reading the newspapers on the dragon boat tragedy made me cry.
because memories flooded back.
something i would like to ask God when i meet Him: why did u let these people die?
i guess it's really easy for many people to just say "God has His will" or "it is part of God's plan."

but it's really not that easy to swallow, when it's u who is feeling the hurt.

one more paper to go, and i look forward to it.

only my pillow and tissue box are left in my room. felt a tinge of sadness when i left the cluster today.
but i believe better days are ahead(:

being alone makes me wonder. makes me think. makes me love people more.
i think that's why im becoming a stronger girl each day.

just yesterday, i was sitting outside mpsh2 waiting for the doors to be open for the students to go in. and about a million other people were waiting there too.was really noisy, and i was wondering if it was ever possible to hear what people were talking about. so i tried to listen.

after 5 seconds, i realised it was impossible.

ok anw people were getting excited and everyone was talking so loudly i think the sound barrier was broken. but i was sitting on the floor and leaning against the wall, singing some songs to God! was trying to block out all noises and meditate quietly in my heart to de-stress myself, and i believed it worked extremely well. so there i was sitting alone singing. im really not crazy. it's just that spending time singing to God is really a wonderful feeling.

and it gives me strength, builds me up:)

being alone in the pgp room made me feel lonely though. was eating my dinner and to my horror i realised there were no archie comics that usually accompanied my meal.so i faced the blank wall window facing ke7 and watched the rain fall down and the cars and shuttle buses and lorries go by. how exciting.

hmm im not putting much effort into blogging.shall stop rambling until i have the mood to blog again.

a bientot. mes examens, ils sont going to finish!(here's when french 2 comes in)

hownowbrowncow?

there are so much more banes to boons, or maybe im just rationalizing.
je deteste organic chemistry very very much. im glad tomorrow is the last day i will see it. but im trying very hard for it, just so it wouldn't pull down my cap THAT much. i realli hope i remember all the reactions,

because they really dun make much sense.

yayy army boy im happy for u(= i still remember how sad and depressed u were when u just went into bmt. do u remember? but guess what! it's gonna be over reeaaaal soon and i hope that makes u a happy boy again!=)looking forward to impress shock u with my driving skills HAHA i hope u haf life insurance?

i guess im gonna miss my pgp room, since after all, i DID spend a huge amount of time in there. but what im gonna miss most is the waking up later-than-if-i-stayed-at-home and my realli nice friend, cher(: it's alright!nous voulons prendre la deuxieme francais course pendant le prochaine sem!a bientot mon amie:)

been doing much thinking both by myself and with mich, and i really am quite certain yet quite confused. im certain about where i want to head to, yet unsure if im blocking out God's prompting. sigh so hard..so hard:( but what's the point if im doing this only out of guilt, whereas i might be doing that other thing out of passion and my heart's desire?i really dunnoe, so tell me, will You? time's running out, im turning twenty.

been wondering when i should go on sep. year2sem2 or year3sem1? france brit or switzerland? france would be fun cuz can visit mes cousins, mai je n'ai pas aller a switz ou brit.hmm thinkthinkthink

im getting old.that's scary. no more a teenager in 4 months.
chinese new year in 2 months.
christmas in 1 month.
end of exams in 1 week
end of organic chem in 21 hours(=

some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed
some say love it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed
some say love it is a hunger, an endless aching need

i say love it is a flower
and you, its only seed

it's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance
it's the dream afraid of waking that never takes a chance

it's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live.

when the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong.
just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed that with the sun's light in the spring becomes the rose.

photos galore!

bonjour!j'ai eu la test francais. c'est un peu difficile, mais je peux faire. tres bien..je voudrais continuer la french 2 pendent la prochaine semester. alors, apres la test, moi, germ, pris, dorcas, natasha, bryan et charles, nous prenons 2 pictures!mais ils sont a natasha.
je suis tres, tres fatigue. je ne veux pas les examens:(

anyway, here are some pictures from my phone!

leftover lap chiong in the wok

sk being nice and trying to whip up a meal!

extreme pain

blooooooood

phage DNA

restriction enzymes

keep cold

run the voltage

gel electrophoresis!

broken shoes

new shoes!

new snack!*intestines mich!*

happy old dog

old grand mama dog

fongsengcheesepratashop-piccino

stupid finger tehcinno peng


AHHHH the last picture i will remember the last day of french 1 class! germ wore a green sweater n white shirt i wore a red sweater and black shirt. christmas tree goblins elves!and up till now i still do not know why bryan says germ is a house and i am a hotel??!?!LOL.
bleagghhh why why why do all good things come to an end~:'(
i like natasha's tatoo(=(= but until im sure that i won't regret it, i will remain tatoo free.
bleaghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh TIRED.
bon nuit

tres fatiguee

i.am.so.tired.of.everything.
of.trying.to.figure.things.out.
of.trying.to.study.for.the.one.million.exams.
of.trying.to.earn.my.keep.
of.trying.to.love.the.world.
of.trying.to.be.me.

God help me.

who am i?

#1: you make me feel weird and uncomfortable
#2: you make me confused
#3: you make me think

je suis tres fatigue, parce que j'ai une million tests. je voudrais les prochain examens etre facile. bon..je me couches bientot. j'ai un test francais demain. aujourd'hui, j'etudie dans la bibliotheque avec mon ammie jusqu'a dix heures, et apres nous etudions, nous allons le bus aret de bus pour prendre la bus, rentrer chez moi.

bien..j'amie apprendre la francais. c'est une langue interessant! mais, je n'aime pas la grammar, parce que il est un peu difficile.

demain, je rentrer chez moi a bishan(= je n'ai pas ete chez moi pour cinq jounees!bon..je (miss) ma vielle chien, mes parents, mon frere et ma chambre!!

d'accord! je me couches maintenant!
au revoir,
bon nuit!