joy

wow. i realise that i have so much time to study, which makes it kinda scary:\

welcome tea was nice i thought the time they gave for us to just walk up to each other and talk and share and get to know each other was cool. staying on campus is good in a way cuz dun realli haf to worry about what time the last bus will leave what time will reach home what time haf to wake up the next morning can just stay in sch until realli late! supper with the sci vcfers was interesting i got to talk to jeremiah, who LOOKS realli serious and no-nonsense type but when i talk to him i realise that he has a bit quite alot of rubbish and that makes it good cuz he understands my jokes! hiakhiak and he is super duper old alrd he try to bluff me that he is year 1-.-

and i talked to this snr i totally cannot rmbr his name..terrible! after listening to his explanation i sorta figure out more abt bidding and fac uni requirements..but this morning i woke up thinking about all those stuff and realise that maybe i haven realli understood them yet:P

and so im gonna attd wed cg since thurs is my go-home-day fri i end at 8pm. cgl is joel who is kinda mad and hyper but i guess he is a nice person from the way he shared his year 1 exp in sch/vcf..and of course during the camp his craziness was revealed during the night walk game..

yupp so after the welcome tea which ended like 830 some sci pple went down to nuh for supper.

i kinda din like that food court because it was the foodcourt where i was sitting down wanting to cry so badly aft visiting b!3nh3!m in the icu and all:'(

well but anw the pple in sci vcf are realli nice. special pple who haf realli been guiding me along are becky yiwen and gary. i still find yiwen quite fierce at times hAHA i think mb she's just stoney or tired:D gary is realli sincere and when he speaks he means it from his heart. and i agree with hw that whenever he says sth, it makes me think harder.. like why i choose to do sth or why i think some things some way..makes me ponder and reflect more..which is good!

and i think im changing, through all these people and the environment that God has placed in my life here at nus. it's no longer about how many friends u make, how well u do in cca, whether u can become a leader ie captain/chairperson, how u wear your uniform, or what your friends'friends'friends'friends' think of you. it's rather how i live my life to show others that Christ is in me, and what im gonna do about the unsaved souls in our midst. i may not be ready to go all out to evangelise and share freely my testimony to random pple, but i know that one day God will give me strength to overcome the things that i previously did not dare to do. it's good time sitting alone in the lt listening intensely to what the lecturer has to say, cuz i dun haf to go back home thinking and pondering about too many things, unlike in jc where i just sit and un-focus during lt and decide that i can study the notes by myself at home.

it's a different experience, and im kinda growing to like it.

and i belive that i have shaken more hands in the past 4 days then i haf had the past 19 years of my life(:

and we learn that hallelujah is a shout of joy of praise:D