I commit again

finished season two of grey's. where is my season three?
every episode is full of excitement, full of thought provoking situations, ethical and medical issues. really had fun watching(:

tmr i leave for new york city. the weather is getting hotter. sheesh:\

im going shopping with butters later for ***s. so fun! we're going to dinner tgt too. hmm what i would do without my ppg=)

was telling mum this morning that i shall be a spinster. and she gave a few solid reasons not to. and i agreed with her. so yay to talking to mum.

smoley came by ytd to eat my sweet mangoes and kiwis..and my chocolate cookie leaving me the coffee one>:( so said he we were "hanging out" haha my hse is like his pitstop/transit lounge/ restroom before and after tuitions. more reasons for free rides hiak(: oh yes and i found out that smoley does not noe how to cut fruits.

tuition was quite bad because j was sick and i was tired. it's not easy. need strength need strength.

and i realise just now that it's so fun and exciting to discover more about the bible. like googling on the history and all.



and the past two nights hadn't been easy. i dunnoe why but i felt so very sad and helpless i just kept crying and asking God why am i even crying when i have no right or reason to be feeling this way. no reason..no reason at all. but i was really sad so i just cried because crying helps me to release everything. and the morning after that i wake up and feel refreshed.


during bs on tues i learnt that i take steps of faith because i hold on to God's promises very strongly, whereas e needs to see things happening before continuing, like moses..realli cool-diff pple, one passion, one God.


and i realise that to continue walking these steps of faith, i need support. i need people to encourage and to tell me that they too are taking these steps, just like me, holding on to the word of God. i need to walk this faith journey with people who are in it too, who understand what im going through. and im sad because my parents can't walk these steps with me.


but thank You Lord for giving me the privilege of talking to You. really, i thank You from the bottom of my heart(: You make my life worthwhile.