through tears and joy,i'll trust
went to church today kinda heavy hearted.
glad tt the worship team was brought down the stage, was a very close feeling which was kinda nice la.
then i dunnoe why at the last song if i didn't rmbr wrongly it was my fav song-all i am- i just felt really afraid and fearful and sad i just started tearing. then when rev goh prayed for us, the tears just kept flowing too. it was during the sermon that i really felt God speaking to me. today is mission sunday and he was preaching a sermon about us being ambassadors of Christ...
and througout the sermon i was just feeling so sad because i really didn't know what to do. korh just went into army ytd and i feel really lost, suddenly there's no brother there for me to turn to. im so afraid that because of army, he would slide away from God. im so afraid that one day, the burden of my parents salvation would just all lie on my shoulders. im so afraid that one day, im the only christian in my family, and all my family members start moving further and further away from God. i was so afriad, that's why i cried.
cuz im struggling with this now, and i hope you'll pray with me. everytime i think of them i cry, cuz i love them so much and i dun wanna let them go. blesssed are those of you whose parents are christians. i pray that you'll treasure them and be grateful for the Lord has blessed you with parents whom you'll meet in heaven. but u noe i just totally feel like crying when i realise that i may not even have the chance to see them in heaven.
and when i was praying by myself after the whole service, i couldn't control my tears again. i kept praying for strength, and i believe that the Lord will give that to me.
and it's really worse to realise that there's no shoulder for me to cry on.
dinner at night with pain was realli cool i love xiaolongbao!and gelare was fantastic esp since we just kept sitting in diff positions and "evolving into the sleeping posture"! the seats were so comfy and hello holland v leh is couples place me n pain's first anniversary HAHAHA pls fareast alrd wu4 hui4 cannot let holland wu4 hui4 also!LOLLLL
then i found COLD ROCK helllloooo i walked in with pain and we saw how super cool it was i kinda regretted eating gelare since today's not tuesday:) EH DW we totally must go there and eat one day!!
glad tt the worship team was brought down the stage, was a very close feeling which was kinda nice la.
then i dunnoe why at the last song if i didn't rmbr wrongly it was my fav song-all i am- i just felt really afraid and fearful and sad i just started tearing. then when rev goh prayed for us, the tears just kept flowing too. it was during the sermon that i really felt God speaking to me. today is mission sunday and he was preaching a sermon about us being ambassadors of Christ...
and througout the sermon i was just feeling so sad because i really didn't know what to do. korh just went into army ytd and i feel really lost, suddenly there's no brother there for me to turn to. im so afraid that because of army, he would slide away from God. im so afraid that one day, the burden of my parents salvation would just all lie on my shoulders. im so afraid that one day, im the only christian in my family, and all my family members start moving further and further away from God. i was so afriad, that's why i cried.
cuz im struggling with this now, and i hope you'll pray with me. everytime i think of them i cry, cuz i love them so much and i dun wanna let them go. blesssed are those of you whose parents are christians. i pray that you'll treasure them and be grateful for the Lord has blessed you with parents whom you'll meet in heaven. but u noe i just totally feel like crying when i realise that i may not even have the chance to see them in heaven.
and when i was praying by myself after the whole service, i couldn't control my tears again. i kept praying for strength, and i believe that the Lord will give that to me.
and it's really worse to realise that there's no shoulder for me to cry on.
dinner at night with pain was realli cool i love xiaolongbao!and gelare was fantastic esp since we just kept sitting in diff positions and "evolving into the sleeping posture"! the seats were so comfy and hello holland v leh is couples place me n pain's first anniversary HAHAHA pls fareast alrd wu4 hui4 cannot let holland wu4 hui4 also!LOLLLL
then i found COLD ROCK helllloooo i walked in with pain and we saw how super cool it was i kinda regretted eating gelare since today's not tuesday:) EH DW we totally must go there and eat one day!!
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