take me as an offering

after like 3 weeks, no prata after all! haha eh we're never going to make it for prata lorh!

lunch today was the BESTEST ever since like forever man nice generous army boi treated me n nick to ajisen ramen. and despite bad reviews by dw nick still went ahead to order the four chili padi volcano ramen! wooo and guess what what? after trying abit of the chili nick decided to just mix everything=all the chili padi and oil=super duper ultra spicy and eruptic and he still managed to finished up the whole bowl and was still attempting to drink up all the soup with all the chili oil! LOL super funny cuz the waiters and waitresses jsut kept giving us water we were wondering why they kept putting cups of water on our table we realised that maybe they saw the wah-shit-this-is-damn-spicy look on nick's face so they just kept supplying him with water. LOL and im sure both of you must gossip and tell me all the secrets about *ahem* haha ok i will not leak out i am a good and trusty friend HAH:):) best part was complaining abt dw's driving must go and destroy the gantry and turn into wrong lane haha i knew it you BRIBED the tester to pass you.

my ramen was fantabulous=not spicy at all and the fried prawn was yuuummmy:) ~happiness

and dunnoe how but we started talking about weddings and best-man and maid of honour and by like how many years we will be married and *ahem* will alrd have babies and i was asked who i wanted to be my maid of honour. HAHA I BET ALL OF YOU WANT TO BE RITE EVEN IF U ARE MALE but too bad cannot. i also dunnoe who i will get to be. this kind of things wun noe one like how i will never noe how im going to choose btwn ntu n nus.

after eating so much my dear friend still had to have desserts we were deciding on where to go first we walked to secret recipes and HELLO i saw eugene and he din see me i hope so he didn't wave :( but anw we decided to go to swensons instead and guess what WE ATE?!?! banana crumnble and minty mint(issit what it's called haha:P) wah i tell u the banana crumble was uber ultra omega zzzzuuuper sweet cuz the waiter was pouring some super thick and creamy condensed milk onto the already sweet crumble and ice cream!!dw took the first bite and got super high LOL but i must sae it was very shiok indulging into it but super sinful.. and the crispy part at the bottom of the hot pan was like prata mmmm yum JIAXIN STOP DROOLING QUICK TAKE TISSUE AND WIPE YOUR MOUTH.

THEN dw was super funny when toking to nainai i just couldn't stop laughing at the shen2=meant wire and bai2 shang4 mian4 hei1 xia4 mian4 MUAHAHAHA he was practically screaming cuz his chinese is so bad he cannot communicate properly. HAHA JUST KIDDDDDDING LA:)

after today's lunch i realised that ARMY REALLY SUCKS cause it deprives me of such fun times.

eh we need our heart-to-heart talk haha omg sounds so mushy.. ikea!!can redeem your driving skills hehe eh i want to karaoke too and rollerblade. and i want to see nubi too eh put him at my hse la i will shower him with more TLC than you do!heh:D

and yes my dear friend you should still offer me a lift to church every sunday haha:)

OOOOOHHH mummy's bdae is tomorrow i just remembered shit a good daughter am i.

mission meeting was fun todae too short though. and we din get alot of things finalised. i guess cuz nat had to leave early i think actually he is the bridge between hk and hc.

i realli like the way sharon labels the furniture in her house for asher to learn:)i shall do that too next time.

ok the bank woman was really rude todae luckily i didn't sae sth like "can u please don't be so rude" but i almost just stared at her with the why-are-you-screaming look but i didnt cause a good girl am i.

im so totally TOTALLY undecided between BOTH OF YOU.







i just wished that You had given me what i wanted.

but if it wasn't Your purpose, then who am i to complain?

im beginning to lose sight, and im afraid one day i'll be blind.

i find reasons to comfort myself,

then i feel that im a hypocrite.

'cause i say i feel this way,

but inside i hate myself

so if i had done well

would you have led me there?

but all along

it was never about me

it was all about You

do i believe in the impossible, if i reach deep within my heart
overcome any obstacle
won't let this dream fall apart
see i strive to be the very best
in what You want me to be.

am i letting my dream fall apart

im finding excuses You know

and it makes me feel like shit

but someday i've gotta do it

reason it out, and make myself feel better

but when will i ever know,

then what is Your purpose? would u please tell me soon?

'cause i really truly don't know,




and im beginning to lose myself



all over again.