She is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying but the canyon's ever widening in the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even knows she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

She is yearning for shelter and affection that she never found at home
She is searching for a hero to ride in, to ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming and he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason and she gives herself away

Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even knows she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

If judgment looms under every steeple if lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter and we never even met her
If judgment looms under every steeple if lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter and we never even met her



He is running, a hundred miles an hour

in the wrong direction.


im thinking and thinking. dont really know how to put this into words, but sometimes i just feel so unmotivated. it's not that im falling, but it's just that there's so many things that can be done, and i feel that i should be doing. yet there isnt an avenue for me to do them. seriously i dont see myself growing if it's going to be the same like that for the rest of my life. i know it's not just the church's responsibility, it's mine too. but i thought this is where my platform is, my support is. but i cant really seem to find it here, after about 6 years. mb after all the reasoning and explanations, this is it. this is why pple start leaving, pple stop coming. i really dont have a better plan or a better idea, or any critisicms or whatsoever. tt's why i said i dont know how to put this into words properly:(

then on the other hand we need pple to stay and change things. but it's so tiring, you know? i know it's easy to say that i should be/can be. but you never know how hard it is being me.

so i'm thinking of spending one year away from church and doing what my heart burdens for. i've always felt for the poor in the 3rd world countries, and i never really knew when i could start. there's the mission field out there that i wanna see, wanna live. i want to see who God is. i feel that most of us, the things that we do, all reflect our selfish desire. of improving the self, making sure we don't fall away, being sure of our grades and performance, seeking to perfect ourselves and our lives, trying so hard to be sure of our salvation and our wellbeing.

i me my we our.

it's time i started doing sth for others,

and for You.