don't say goodbye to my memory

i realise that since the day i thought i wanted to let go
it just got harder.
i've never been like this before.
i always knew how to let go.
always knew when to let go.

and i was thinking
perhaps the saddest thing
is that you would never know.
not today
not tomorrow
not forever.

i guess i understand now
what it means to hate those that you love
to force youself
to avoid at all cost
just so

i would forget.

forget. is that what i really want to do?

will you remember me
when you go on with life
when the stars refuse to shine
when time is no more



and then one day
i turn around
and realise that all was, is.
same all, just a different...



you.