unfair

be it in a love relationship,










or a friendship,














the one who wins,











never gets hurt.












but the one who gets hurts the most,












without anyone knowing what he/she has gone through..











ends up losing.











so unfair.
when u lose a friend, you get hurt the most, yet the person who gets her never gets hurt.
when u lose your partner, you get hurt the most, yet the person who gets her never gets hurt.

how is it possible that the world seems so bright and happy and cheery for one,
yet seem so dead and hopless for another.

i don't understand you Lord.

anw was talking to mummy a few days back rgd my career choice, and i told her that i am willing to get into a job that will not earn much-because of the kind of research i want to do. i want to research on a poor people's disease, like malaria or hiv, diseases that no one wants to research on because it dussen pay well, it constitutes much risk. ask most docs or soon-to-be-docs what they want to specialize in, and most answers will be backed by this reason-"i want to specialize in __ beacause now, alot of pple are having these problems.." or "nowadays, singapore got alot of pple with ___. good market, i want to specialize in this" or "____ can earn alot of $.." etc. not many people know, but when i started out wanting to be a doctor, my vision (no pun intended) was to be able to earn enough $ to provide free spectacles to the poor people in the 3rd world countries, because i was so touched by the beautiful things of this earth that the Lord has given us, and i felt so sad that many poor people with poor eyesight are unable to absorb these sights that we take for granted. many pple want to be docs because they want to "make a difference", but how much of a difference, really, are you making if u are just going into this industry being a specialist or a gp etc? however being in research now, i realise that there is so much more meaning to life n careers than earning big bucks, then getting into a specialization that is considered "high class" or what not.

did you know?
-THAT ONE CHILD DIES OF MALARIA EVERY 30 SECONDS
-More than one million people die of malaria every year, mostly infants, young children and pregnant women and most of them in Africa.
-Every year, more than 500 million people become severely ill with malaria.

aren't these numbers huge enough???

i realise that i can do so much more with my life, and even if it means researching in an area which dussen offer big bucks, like malaria and hiv, im willing to take this step of faith.

because i really want to help those who cannot help themselves.

i don't want to be a doctor and earn the rich man's $.
i don't want to be a doctor and know all about the rich man's disease.
i don't want to be a doctor and cure the rich men.



i want to be the salt and light for the poor.
i want to use my knowledge and find a drug that will help the poor.
i want to change the fact that drug industries are not investing in poor people's disease research because think about it:

if they found a drug to cure malaria, they'd have to give it for free to those who need it = those who can't afford it.

unfair.

*disclaimer: of course i still give doctors and specialists all their due respect, esp mine. because without them, i might be dead by now. the above sharing is based on personal reflection and personal commitment to a "higher calling", if one might put it. please do not take anything personally.