self-control
sick and tired. literally.
watching baptism reminds me of my first love with Jesus(: it's not very often i feel that same loved which stirred in my heart some 3,4 years back. i know i love Him and He loves me, but just that maybe, there's no real understanding between the both of us.
and of course, it's purely my fault.
God has been very merciful to me. from my trip to france, my application to NUS, my failure to get into Med sch, cors bidding, my operation, kor's postings, my relationships, my driving tests, to the providence of friends i can depend my life on, i have seen God's wonders and miracles. He could have chosen to take me from the op table, failed my driving test etc, but He has provided.
and for that i give thanks.
although many times i still wonder why You do some things You do, i humble myself and admit that i am in no position to question.
many times we do and say things that are meant to be a joke, but they end up hurting others. so that's why im trying hard now to be truthful and un-malicious. ever since i made that secret promise with God, i have been trying hard, and filtering things in my brain before they come out of my mouth. im trying not to say things which will stumble and not edify, hurt and not encourage. God, please help me.
new sem is starting, and im planning my timetable!it's quite tiring to scan through the million and one permutations and combinations of modules.lecutures.tutgroups.labgroups. timings. i pray that God will bless me with the modules i truly sincerly definitely would love to take(= there is one module which im totally obsessed with!
mum has been working day and night since forever, and i miss having her around to go shopping and walking and talking and thinking what to cook and baking and everything! i don't even know if she's happy working. i know she likes to work, but is she truly happy? if she finds joy in what she does i will give her my full suppport. the problem is, i only see stress.
thinking back on the days when i was fat, i realised that i was indeed a lost sheep. God really changed my life(= imagine if i did what i thought was best? i wouldn't be in heaven right now:)
reflections and sharings never fail to strengthen and encourage me. so how am i going to serve the Lord next year? social actions is definitely on my mind, and it's always a struggle to decide between studies and service. you know what i mean? but anyhow, i don't see a calling in that area, and that's why im stepping out. my heart does not burden for this area of ministry, and i believe that i have heard a calling to another place. i pray for direction and confirmation.
it's a new adventure, and im ready to go:)
ok time to start studying!
watching baptism reminds me of my first love with Jesus(: it's not very often i feel that same loved which stirred in my heart some 3,4 years back. i know i love Him and He loves me, but just that maybe, there's no real understanding between the both of us.
and of course, it's purely my fault.
God has been very merciful to me. from my trip to france, my application to NUS, my failure to get into Med sch, cors bidding, my operation, kor's postings, my relationships, my driving tests, to the providence of friends i can depend my life on, i have seen God's wonders and miracles. He could have chosen to take me from the op table, failed my driving test etc, but He has provided.
and for that i give thanks.
although many times i still wonder why You do some things You do, i humble myself and admit that i am in no position to question.
many times we do and say things that are meant to be a joke, but they end up hurting others. so that's why im trying hard now to be truthful and un-malicious. ever since i made that secret promise with God, i have been trying hard, and filtering things in my brain before they come out of my mouth. im trying not to say things which will stumble and not edify, hurt and not encourage. God, please help me.
new sem is starting, and im planning my timetable!it's quite tiring to scan through the million and one permutations and combinations of modules.lecutures.tutgroups.labgroups. timings. i pray that God will bless me with the modules i truly sincerly definitely would love to take(= there is one module which im totally obsessed with!
mum has been working day and night since forever, and i miss having her around to go shopping and walking and talking and thinking what to cook and baking and everything! i don't even know if she's happy working. i know she likes to work, but is she truly happy? if she finds joy in what she does i will give her my full suppport. the problem is, i only see stress.
thinking back on the days when i was fat, i realised that i was indeed a lost sheep. God really changed my life(= imagine if i did what i thought was best? i wouldn't be in heaven right now:)
reflections and sharings never fail to strengthen and encourage me. so how am i going to serve the Lord next year? social actions is definitely on my mind, and it's always a struggle to decide between studies and service. you know what i mean? but anyhow, i don't see a calling in that area, and that's why im stepping out. my heart does not burden for this area of ministry, and i believe that i have heard a calling to another place. i pray for direction and confirmation.
it's a new adventure, and im ready to go:)
ok time to start studying!
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