He lays me down in green pastures:)

today's talk over hot chocolate pure chocolate mudpie choc powder vanilla powder was GOOD.

i start to learn alot about myself, and i don't know if some things are good. like the who hurt is better thing, issit really good my way?dunnoe.

i think that maybe im too soft-hearted. not in ALL aspects of my life, as in onli when it comes to golden (haha mich u are glorified)friends and family, i'd much rather be hurt then hurt. not like i think of myself as very wei3 da4 or what, just that, aiya, how to say leh?

but what if one day history repeats itself, and i get so hurt that i start










to











contemplate














******* again?

maybe that's a little to the extreme, but we never know.

come to think of it, i was really selfish then. imagine i didn't find God, or He could'nt find me. i wouldn't have been making this 122 entry here.

but what if one day i just become so hurt without realising it and i lose my mind?


ok i shall stop scaring myself.


wow i realise todae we talked for almost 3++hours leh. i like talks like these:) get to see how intellectual and mature reflective and serious we are about life.

i think God really has something planned for me. im starting to see things that i didn't see before, things i wouldn't have thought of if i hadn't been made to answer some questions pple pose to me.

i think we're really mature, and our conversations to0.just adds so much value to this world. *claps hands and glorifies self*

HEY i shall start writing the proposal for the family camp games which was supposed to be organised by jiaxin i dunnoe seriously why issit my burden now and start thinking when to have a buru team 1 dinner:):)

i love God for blessing me in big ways and small ways, but sometimes i just look at the things that im unhappy about and forget to be thankful for the good.


sorry Lord:(