mood:sadness in happiness.

whee im happy cause i met army boy just now! wow it's been almost a month since i met this goodygoody friend i seriously miss all the times we spent in class trying not to fall asleep talking non stop me teasing dave sim abt his english doodling on notes drawing smoleys(u rmbr what they are?!!!) on people cam whoring bitching people watching philosophising u telling me all your theories and theologies (hehe:P) telling secrets to each other praying for one another helping one another with friends-problems going for evening jogs meeting up with nubi making friends with that small little cute tanned girl at the stadium who lives in a BIG house with four big dogs walking all the long long way to the bubble tea table sitting there treating me to chin chow trying to feed nubi ice me scolding u for ill-treating her doing project work eating the chinese food u made to sound so very delicious (it was la:D) me egging u on to buy the two shirts i rmbr the bright tight orange one hehe wow so many fun times nice memories good friend i thank God for you=)

so please don't forget that my birthday is on the 31st march saturday i would very much like to have this white LV wallet which costs about $890 but it's really so sexy like me if u want to buy it for me u can ask me for the model i will invite u to the LV shop and show it to you :P
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in john wesley's cell group system, cell members were made to "confess" of their sins to their fellow members each week. if the same sin was committed for consecutive weeks, the cell leaders would "pressurize" the cell member to work on not committing this sin again. in order to save oneself from embarassment and blahblah, cell members would work hard on changing themselves. upon attending cell group meetings,members would be able to collect a ticket form the cell group leader. so after every four weeks, members would sort of be "cleansed" because they would have repented from their sins. this prepared them spiritually to partake of the holy communion every 4 weeks as they were now spiritually cleaner than before. members without the ticket were not allowed to take the holy communion.
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2 yrs ago, a few hours from now, you were struggling so hard to hold on. the Lord prepared but we didn't.we didn't want to, but it never was our choice. thinking of you makes me cry. i miss you and i rmbr your face. you was still young then you were my age. i don't wanna think about it because it only makes me cry even harder. sometimes i wonder how yourparents or sisters feel when even i alrd feel so sad and feel the great loss. i haven't totally forgiven God u noe, not like im in a position to forgive Him..but it's just


so


very


difficult.